for my family,friends,cousins and anyone who knows me....
i just want to tell you that you are much loved and you are always on my prayers...you are all my precious darlings and without you i'm nothing....:)

so today i go to republic poly with shakeela.our initial plan was to go on a study date.but since there was an open house there we don't.the open house was not what i expected it would be.i mean it in a bad way...we just go there and took photos.since i was the camera freak i started the photo session deciding on the 'perfect' spot for us to took pictures.so we receive nothing else but t-shirt inside the goodie bag.and i donated $0.50 to the mynmar cyclone victim on the entry to the rp open house.the cam whoring was the most fun part of the day.my bff gave me a cute cupcake which taste delicious by the way and she made it specially for me which was sweet.:)i ate it secretly in my bedroom when i reached home so that no one can eat or finish my precious and special cuppycake especially the little irritating small siblings of mine.took photos and video while i'm eating the cuppycake.btw,it has cherry on top.:)i only gave them a tinny tiny part of the cuppycake and i finish all of them.

so when i reached home i am starving.actually not so.the picture of the cuppycake was on my mind and i having a bad headache while at the bus.i cannot read or see pictures when i am on the bus cause it will cause me SEVERE HEADACHE for days to come.but i forgot about that and get excited to see the photos that i had taken when suddenly...BANG!!!!it hit me.and till now i'm having the headache and i feel like smashing my head against the wall.when i reached home with ntuc fairprice plastics with beansprout,chye sim and bread which my mum ask me to buy i saw my favourite finger food on the table and quickly grab it.yum yum...i realise that my mum have not prepared fried mee which i initially thought she was going to COOK but later change the menu suddenly.

so to sum up my day today, i'm half happy and half sad and angry.i hate myself for being too sensitive and CHOOSY.when i don't like that thing or food i will never ever like it.my mum cooked noodles soup which is so not my favourite!!!!i protest by not eating which makes her mad,i get scolded and i ACCIDENTALLY shout at her but actually i intend not to since she makes me so mad and my head is pounding so to make my stress go away i kinda shout and cry..typing it now makes me want to cry.a few minutes later she soften up and ask me to eat,this time politely...which i prefer better than the shouting she gave me a few moments ago...i ate it.but only a small bite.i hate noodles soup which contains yellow noodles and kway teow.Now i OFFICIALLY hate it like forever...and i am craving fried noodles write now.i hope i do not die the next day while craving for my fried noodles.:'(my mother ask if it taste nice and with my honest opinion i say it does not taste nice.you must be true to yourself right by saying the right thing although it might hurt others.i don't like her soup noodles soup but i like her other cookings which is a plus point rightt?

in a bad mood.my sis just scolded me for pluging off her hp while she is charging it.i don't reply or shout at her.she was lucky today.i just continue typing and keep my mouth shut and staring at the computer.so thats my day today.

forget to type something.my morning was bad actually.my sis called my mum to inform her that she and friends received golden village movie tickets.i know she wants to make me jealous.seriously,I DON'T CARE!!!!my mum as usual nag at me and use that excuse that i must always wake up early as by doing that luck will it be on my side..i'm so pissed off as she told me this while i was sleeping.i woke up dragging my towel along and go to the toilet and i mumble to myself and i realise my mum was outside the toilet listening to my whole mumbling.and by the way last time i won creative mp3 while at the ngee ann polytechnic and by the way i don't have to wake up so early just to won the mp3 does it???DOES IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!????????????????UURRGHHH!!!!movie ticket?its not a big deal.it is cost just $6.oo btw if you are a student.SO LAME!!

and btw i like withdrawing money fROM the atm machine and i was like hook by it...hehes:)the smell of money is so nice....
david archeletta(if mispelled sorry....)went to the final!!!yeah!!!!!I LOVE YOU DAVID!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so step aside david cook.this time the 17-years old david is going to conquer the whole stage and win the title!!!!!

today maths class was super duper fun as always.was always looking forward to it.i like maths for the first time EVER!!!can you believe it.the teacher change my perception of maths.as usual new stories being told to us.he is such a joker.and he like to chit chat with us.today story was about biology and many more.lazy to type.will miss him when he class finished on 6 october.he was the best 'he' teacher i ever had in my study experience.he changed everything.and he always cracks joke which makes it less stressful.
more stories....
but lazy to type.
i might as well forget about it.hope not.

so on mother's day me and my sis fry 2 pieces of ready-made prata.actually it's my sis idea.then i make nescafe drinks for her as she likes it a lot.the dish were completed with deserts and all.and she don't know it was for her.how good is that?hehes:)then we light up candles for her.the mini candles that you can found in ikea inside a big bag.my sis try to light it up.but fail.cos she freak out everytime the newspaper turn into a flame.and i turn panicky and my mum was laughing at her and saying please don't burn up her kitchen.and i was laughing like hell.my sis went to the hall to play 'ibu' song sung by taufik batisah.and my two spoiler for the day as usual was my two little irritating siblings who make the mother's day worse.fighting always.my lil sis actually named mother's day into mama day.and she asked if there was ever a sister day cause she is excited making cards and all...

write poem for my mum.me and my sis join heads to make one.it was long.but worth it.and my mum hug and kiss us both which makes me want to cry.but i control it.i feel bad for her sometimes.so here goes our poem:

your endless love flows,
like a never ending river.
you shower us with care,
like a rain that waters its land.
you shaped us from a chunk of mould,
into a well mannered human being.
your sacrifices,
have made us into everything that we are today.
your sincerity in everything that you do,
have made us wept as we realise nothing more is pure than a mother's love.
mama,
you are my heart,
you are my soul.
you have make us into everyhing that we are.
though we might not show you our love to you,
we always wanted to tell you that we cherished everything that you have done for us.
we wanted to beg for forgiveness,
if we have cause you pain.
you are the melody to our song,
you are our doctor when we are sick,
you are the spine to our body,
you are the pole that we lean on,
you are the shoulder when we cry,
last but not least you are our best friend that will always and forever stay in our heart.
we love you mom always and forever.....

haven't blog for a few days.as usual.LAZY.hahax!!!nothing much.and i am so addicted to curry'o from old chang kee right now.and have been craving for it like forever though i just ate it a few days ago.as usual everybody's asleep except me.during labour day i have study date with my cousin.last minute decision.went to republic poly as library is closed.so we walk there from cwp affter eating at kfc.my favourite fast food restaurant.am craving the crispy chicken right now...arrghh!!!aniwaes the study date was going on well until my mum called to inform that my sis had reached home but my cousin haven't.and got to know that she was secretly out with her boyfriend without her mum knowing as she was thinking they were still studying.okay,back to before that happened.i am happily taking photo with her sis and talking crap and eating lays and drinking large coke and 7-11 brain freeze drink while doing our revision and i was laying down and doing crazy stuff and we were the most noisiet 'couple' there when suddenly my mum called me to tell the bad news which my sis unhappy.my sis insist on me not telling but my mum sort of pestering me to tell her sister what happened and my mum finally asked me to decide and hung up and she says 'it is for her own good'.that is when i tell her sis and we were suddenly quiet and start talking about serious business......

too long of a story.will complete it next time.but i was shocked initially.but my mouth can't stop grinning and smiling though it is a serious issues.i always have the tendency to do that and my sis is like me too.hate it.

me and my sis started talking about being a pyschologist when we grew up.:)

today was a short day for me.everything went smooth sailing.nothing bad happen and i am satisfied.except that i am still on a debate with my sis about issues regarding dying of hair.she was always the one who is the last one talking and i am not satisfied cause i am the only one who ends up losing whenever there is a debate and i f***-ing hate it.will not give up.and while debating we were shouting like two crazy monkeys who is fighting over a bunch of bananas and we are going psycho.i was shouting so bad until i got to stop and gasp for breath and then continue on my shouting like a babarian and we stop suddenly like it started suddenly.weird.but it was fun.my sis was debating with her towels on her only.how 'glamorous' is that.i thought of tugging her towel and let her stand there naked and i will end up winning.hahas!!!!

today poa lessons was quite okay.i do not look at the watch as much as last week.this week lesson ends fast mayb due to doing of many practices.and i hate to say this but i actually like this lesson.

during the lesson my sis smsed me without thinking that i was in class.how 'thoughtful' of her.she asked me to buy for her mac chicken and when i arrived home i found her sleeping and until now she have not even touch her burger cause guess what she was still sleeping!!!!try singing to her cause she is easily irritate by my bad singing but that fails and i am freaking pissed off right now.only now i realised that she is closing her ears.wtf!!!everybody asleep.i,as usual was always the midnight owl.will only sleep till it is 2-4 am and wake up late in the afternoon.hahax!!!the tv is on and it is watching my dad sleeping.not the other way round.when i or any other person off or change the channel he will woke up and scold whoever it is and then continue to doze off again.weird but true and my mum was always pissed by it.:)

am irritatingly tring to create my own blogskin.and it is freaking hard i tell you!i don't understand why do need to understand html and all.so irritating and useless.thats all for tonite.!!

this is the video and a pic.and sorry if there was any grammatical eeror in the previous post cause i was practically tired...



will post the pic tom or the day after.

okay yesterday started badly and ends badly..my life can be supposingly boring and i am like dying.never talk the whole day cause not in the mood and is angry about what my sis says about me.its like wtf!!!if i want to wear tank top what hell do you care!!its not like its stated no tank tops allowed in this house.my family members can be so old-fashioned,not sometimes most of the time.their way of thinking is like way back to the stone age.like hello this is the 21st century!!!and no one bothers anymore about what you wear only idiots do that.

and yesterday it ends badly.my bro had bad extreme bad cough and have short breath and my mum says it could be bronchitis(sorry if i mispelled)and it was.cab to kkh and the fee was 16.20...hehes..mental note:stop taking note of those things.it just kinda stuck to my head once i saw something.registered to the emergency department and go to observation room 2.the same place where he is admitted on january.my mum was right and he was diagnosed with bronchitis.was given a puff every few minutes through this funny gadget.seriosly the hospital sometimes freak me out with their unusual gadgets.

while i was there my eyes was on the wild goose chase,checking out the doctors there.and i created my own manhunt nadhirah version which entertain me.there was one cute not to mention HOT!!chinese doctor which is quite young.he wear a watch!!!i am so excited!!!!i am so addicted with guys who wears watch.donnoe why..pathetic isn't it...but i like it.anyway i was grinning ear to ear everytime i saw he came by...i watch his every move like a stalker..:)i even check out the room he ws on when i was on the way out to buy hot milo for my mum but he wasn't there.:'( and there was this one time where he go to treat my bro and i was grinnig form one ear to another like a complete idiot and my mum notice it and she was like "why are you smiling?" and i was like stammering trying to think of a word to say...seriously why must my mum notice that?and i sort of laughing half-heartedly and say my bro is funny though there is no particular reason to say that.and my mum sort of take that though i know she sort of suspect something which i hope not.

and while he was atending to my bro as he was supposed to warded i was like standing there and quickly took out my phone before i forget about it and took videos while he was talking..he so cute even with his mouth covered.i was like practically drooling over there and melting.when i want to snap his pic he turn around and i think he know i am taking his pic..hehes:)mental note:chinese guys are way...hotter...at least some of them are.

registered my bro and after a few painstaking moment waiting at last he was admid to his ward.every ward was full.my mums wants B1 but it was full and that sort of make my mum angry and she was sulking when i told A2 was full too...haizz....so at last being admitted to B2 where it is very noisy...haha!!!pitied my mum...she had to bear with all the noise.

and after i went home,was super duper tired.seriously,i am practically running everywhere at kkh.felt like i had finished running marathon.so when i arrived home changed clothes,wash my face and iron my sis school clothes and after that hang the wet clothes.felt like crying as i was going to pass out at that moment and my eyes was already heavy and my whole body ache.ate mutton chop which my dad bought at beach rood.ALONE!!!!:'(at 2.00am.everybody was asleep.felt like crying.after that wash the whole stack of dishes.ALONE!!!and after grab some water take a newspaper close the light and head to my room where i read newpaper and by that time it was already 3.30am.decided to bunk in.and guess what?at 7.00am was woke up by my dad.i only got 4 or maybe 3 hours of sleep only!!!!!take my sis to school and this is where i end up.my life is like a complete disaster right now.hate it.!!!felt like skipping class today but don't have the heart too...i am always like that ser...am angry with myself..hmmph...

few words to describe today:CRANKY,TIRED,GET ANGRY EASILY,SLEEPY(need my beauty sleep!!!,EMOTIONAL(will feel like crying),SENSITIVE,DEPRESSED!!!!!!!!!!!!so don't get me angry or i will snap your head out and i will not tolerate any nonsense.will not me entertaining people today.not in the mood.sorry.will not reply any msgs.

hiehiehie...well i'm back...!!!!!my internet connection had been down for a few days or should i say almost a week.almost because of a wire which is disconnected from the phone line and no one realises it.how pathetic is that.So it had been two weeks since i first started my night classes at unity sec.the teachers who taught me is quite good though i kept looking at the watch wishing i could fast foward time and make it to 10pm cause i am easily bored.

so yesterday i had poa lesson.realise there was a new teacher.and she speaks with these accent that sounds really made up and at the same thime annoying and i wanna puke to the sound of it.she is just plain making it up.i don't care people with natural speaking accent but hers,if you heard it you can in once know that it is fake.

have this fucking headache throughout the lessons.couldn't concentrate on bit and feel like going home during break but decided to say in case she go through some important point which she does.but it is a waste though cause none of it make sense to me cause nothing is going through my head and i am going through a major blank moment.

and also there was this thermal fogging at my estate which is completely disgusting.Roaches everywhere and i have to be careful not to step on it.i was freaking out every moment seeing some of them crawling but mostly they are dead and SQUASHED!!!!EWWWWWW!!!!!!disgusting isn't it?but still got to go through that one hell of a moment.

watch american idol.kristy cook(sorry if i mispelled it.not good at spelling name) was out.she is so pretty!!but i like brooke,both of the davids.but i like the younger version better. David Archuleta is so young and he is 17 and i am going to be 17 and i was like gogogaga over him whenever he smiles:)it was mariah carey week.mariah carey had such a powerful and wonderful voice.no wonder she is a diva.she deserves that title.

and by the way i found this video on youtube which shows justin timberlake,christina aguilera and britney spears when they were on mickey mouse club.so cute.:)enjoyzz....:)

haven't blog for quite a while.not so many things had happened lately.except on saturday i went to sab birthday party and i and my bff aisha bought a big teddy bear for her and a pooh bear for her sis.we quite enjoy enjoy ourselves there.sab kept apoligizing cause she is not able to entertain us as she is busy with her other guest.we arrive at around 3.45pm at costa sand pasir ris chalet.help around a little bit.we do nothing more than eat and eat.after that camwhoring with my best buddy aishah!!!love her.she said oi am a camera freak which i guess i am.go back late at 10.15pm and my mum kept calling me which is stressing me out.i am also worried as there might not be a bus service as it is already late.though worried we goof around and camwhore in the train as there were not so many people around.i was the one who is the most playful among all.hehes:).luckily by 11.30 we already arrive at sembawang.my mum wait for me at the bus stop and i felt like a kid.SERIOUSLY!!!!

so yesterday i went for my night class which is maths.the teacher was quite funny and he teaches quite good and f.y.i i don't have any friends yet.there are so many newbies yesterday besides me.i guess i and another chinese girl from fuchun sec is the only girls or student who had taken the o level last year.

yesterday is also the first day for my friend aishah attending classes at republic polytechnic.she is attending biotechnical engineering course.
am so happy for her.

okay today i was supposed going to be directed by a bunch of 10-year old kid for a short film they are making.my cousin are going to act as ghost though she is the one who is actually afraid of ghost and i am supposed to act as an adult who is terrified of ghost which i am.the shooting starts at 2pm and end at 3pm.i'm so tired now.my brain is half functioning and my whole body feels like it need a sleep for a few more hours.i'm thinking of not going but i pity them.

i told my mum about it but she said she will call my cousin on behalf of me.and also later me and my mum are going to send my sick sis to polyclinic cause she is having fever and cough for a few days now.i think i am going to be sick.today i had another night class which is science.i hope i am not the only newbie and hope the people there are kind.anyway the classes are held at unity secondary at yew tee.

p.s:sab like the big bear that i and aishah buy for her and she kept sms-ng and calling saying she is hugging the bear.awww...so swit and nice of her.am touched...so happy:)so worth it.