first and foremost...THE NEWS UPDATE!!!the JI leader had escaped from whitley detention prison.what the heck is he thinking???causing trouble for HIMSELF OFCOURSE!!AND CAUSING OTHERS TROUBLE SEARCHING FOR HIM.DID HE THINK HE IS ONE HECK OF ROYALTY THAT NEEDED TO BE SEARCHED FOR,FOR THE STUPID THING HE HAD DONE???if i were him,i would not stupidly runaway and cause trouble and if i did STUPIDLY RAN AWAY I WOULD SURRENDER WHILE HOLDING A WHITE FLAG!!now everybody is scared and anxious and nervous...a mix of emotions and things run through the mind....i'm shocked how did he get away while s'pore security is one of the tightest EVER!!in the WORLD!!!my mum thought he use black magic or he had already team up with his friend outside the prison and had it all plan already...i'm so disappointed right now......not to mention SCARED!!!but no matter what life has to go on and we just hope for tthe best and hope he got caught as soon as possible...

my dad come home from work today complaining about the traffics..he said that every single part was jam with vehicles...and it all comes down to one person....now the JI leader issues is one of our main household talk...what the heck!!!

ok to other issues now...i just painted my nails pink.and guess what it is only on one hand.funny isn't it?*haha**yawn*what a lame joke....anyway my cousin,fara got to be a prefect which is just so adorable and she call on my cell and tell about her whole interview with the t-i-c,mdm juliana.she also told me about her Ca1 marks and all and...SHE PERSUADED ME TO SLEEPOVER AT HER HOUSE!!!and my mum says no...she also ask me to come to her football practice this sunday....

my grandfather just got back from hospital yesterday and i do not visit him cause i have TERRIBLE stomach cramp....could not stand it ser....just got in contact with shahidah and hakimah recently....shahidah go to mi and hakimah go to rp....miss them ser....*Boo hoo*

i recently got hooked on this korean drama AGAIN!!hehes:)its title MY GIRL the drama is so damn funny and the actors are drop dead HOT!!!especially lee dong wook.its currently airing on channel u on sat and sun at 7.30pm and it airs for two hours.and i learn a korean sentence which is sarang heyo lee dong wook.which translated to i love you lee dong wook!!!my sis and i are crazy over him and i went gugugaga over him each time i see him face and my mum thought i am retarded and she says that he is like any normal guy which i and my sis totally disagree.she got no taste at all!!!hehes...

klah...nity nite..will update tom...muackzz....

today had been a very tiring day i ever had in years...i had help out my kak long which is my cousin to sell things at a bazaar at safra mount faber in telok blangah way...luckily there's an air-conditioner at that place...it was held for 2 days and i can't imagine telling you how tired i am right now...will tell about the details of the bazaar tom...

i'm thinking of redying my hair with a lighter shade cause i'm not satisfied with the colour of my hair right now which is mahagony red....i think the colour have faded after i go swimming....i'm not sure whether i should highlight my hair or dye my whole hair...thinking of using revlon cause it is ammonia free and it will not damage our hair....thinking of using garnier too but either one...

getting my o level result soon and i am so damn NERVOUS!!!!!my mum said it is too late already...URRGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyway my dad bought a brand new portable psp from his friends at just $220...so happy!!!!klah gtg...i'm having a migrain right now...sorry fot the speeling and pardon me if i am wrong...dadas...

today i woke up quite early or should i say very early...which is at 6.40am..surprisingly i dont feel sleepy or tired..i feel fresh...wait until 7.30 to do my exercise routine..quickly on discovery channel and am just in time as the show is just going to start..the exercise is about butt lift...i feel so refresh after doing the exercise which is about 1/2 hour...my butt and thigh feel so good and it feels like my butt had been lifted and i can like my stomach issuck without me sucking in....after that watch yoga...and decided that tom i will do yoga cause i read it will improve postures and i want curvy hips....hehes:)

after watching yoga ifeel so damn tired and went to sleep until 11.30am..and my mum tease me about sleeping right after doing execise....hehes:)i am not a morning person actually but the aerobic programme on the television kind of motivated me to woke up in the morning...

and my aunt got a shop book on a bazaar and she and my mum sort of want to venture into business and its kinda funny to me to see my mum so enthusiastic about this business thingy...hehess:)

i have been down on luck since the start of new year cause i can't seem to find a job and i have not been called for an interview...this new year had been different for me cause i celebrate it at my kak long's house(aunt)for 1 night...we ate doritos with a dip of those delicious salsa...i can still taste the wonderful and delicious doritos that had been dip with those salsa....i want to ask my mum to buy it later on if i remember....

my brother's first school experience in nursery had not been good as expected cause he seem almost fine before going in and just when it is time to get inside he was the only one who cried and that ashamed me..and what i do next?i sort of walk away as far possible from his class and acted like i donnoe what the heck had happened and i took photos of my hyperactive sister....

i am currently hook on two things now....
1.a book written by susan elizabeth phillips title:kiss an angel which is so damn funny!!!although i just read it till a quarter page....it have 24 chapters altogether afteri sneek to the final page to find out until what page it is cause it is quite thick and i had 3 morwe books to go which include LEGALLY BLONDE!!!enough if that..i'm just at chapter 5 and i can't wait for the ending....

2.i am going to do exercise every morning if i wake up early at 7.30am...going to do the exercise or yoga at discovery channel...i am dying to go to the gym but am not sure yet when...still planning what clothes to wear..hehe:)always feeling tired and sleepy rite now cause of the time of the month....hehes:)

3.i am learning how to cook already...it is fun cause i am always restricted to cook and i my mum can't see me chop the onions what so ever cause she is scared my hands will be accidentally chopped off just cause i am left handed....URRGGHH!!!!!!!!i just can't work under her supervision..the kitchen is her territory she said...but now she is trying to let go and now i am always doing the cooking and she is happy and laughing when she order me too cook and said to my other family members that she already had a person to cook for the whole family...

my stomach is grumbling right now but i don't like the dishes which i had cooked today although i cook it with the help of my mum...i hate the dish but i still had to cook it....am uploading photos ad i'm nervous about the upcoming o level result...by the way f.y.i my brother didn't cry today and my mum treat him to kfc and buying power ranger clothes instead of bag for him...am going to edit friendster if i am not lazy....going to edit photos to if i have time...and before i forgot..my mum is making soya beans drinks!!hehes:)

dadas....its done.

bad day ahead...

my mum had been treating me like a maid by asking me to wash the dishes all the time..she is taking advantage of me and i would like to run from my home which is now like a hell to me with i trap in helplessly with no where to go...that bloody biatch had been making my temperature rising...i feel like bursting already....somebody please help me..i am in need of desperate help and i want to get away from my mom as far as possible....the faster the better for the meantime as my relationship with her this few days had not been good...she is making my life worse right now....my cuzin is going through the same fate as me...i pity US!!!i want to go to the gym but she ignores me and says i don't need to and my sis say i am too thin to go for exercise...like DUHH!!!!!excuse me...you don't have to be fat in order to go to the gym...is there such a rule that stated ONLY FAT PEOPLE CAN GO THE GYM???hmmm....let me think...i guess NOT??YOU ARE NOT THE BOSS OF ME SO YOU BETTER KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!!for your information people go to the gym to keep their body healthy regardless of what body size so as not to do it excessively....and here comes the good part...my mom think that i want to go the gym only because i want to follow my cuzens footsteps....URRGH!!!HOW WORSE COULD IT BE!!I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!!!I'M SICK OF YOUR RULES!AND FOR YOUR INFROMATION I AM ALREADY 16 NOT 6!!!WHEN YOU CAN ORDER PEOPLE AROUND....

this morning my dad and my mom accompany my sis to bukit panjang polyclinic and her wound is somewhat better..her wound had been treated but she need constant treatment...she is also diagnosed with hand,foot and mouth disease probably because she need to go for further check-up this monday...i thought only kids get that disease and that thought is bothering me....my mom had been spoiling my sis by doing things for her while i had to do the FUCKING housework....

aniwae.i'm suppose to return magazine on 27/12 but i've been lazy to go out....i am in need of absolute peace which i gladly CAN'T!!I want to repeat once again what a bad month december is to me except for the trip to village....just can't wait for '08 to come....hoping for a good year....(hopefully)i will give more info on what i crave for and hoping to fulfill in the next post....

totally in frustration

i am so mad right now i feel like i am going to need to kick someone ass and smack his head right off...this is how mad i am right now...i'm in no mood to joke watsoever and i am going berseck!!!ohkaes straight to the point...my sis SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!oh what a relief after saying that.....(sigh)i feel like shouting,screaming and do any other unimaginable stuff right now...oh what does she think she is..i noe you are sick but you don't have to order people around making things worse and making others crazy....now i feel like i am not going to help you whatsoever again...OH NO YOU DON'T!!!!don't even think about it young lady....i know you are sick but i am growing tired out of this...with i doing all your chores...i'm tired...you know what does that mean or you need me to help you define that word?i guess you don't right??don't expect me to buy your books for you as i am not your maid...ask someone else to do it for you...i am not..i repeat not in a G.O.O.D M.O.O.D....all thanks to YOU!!!YEAH YOU!!!AND THAT YOUR IRRITATING CUZIN OF YOURS NOT MINE(as i proclaim,though i am ashamed to admit that she is my cuzin) WHO CAN'T STOP BUGGING YOU AND YOU KNOW WHAT!!SHE SUCKS BIG TIME TOO!!IN FACT SHE SUCKS MORE THAN YOU!!!!YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?IT IS BECAUSE YOU SPOIL THAT BLOODY ASS TOO MUCH!!!!GET IT!!!!!AND BECAUSE OF HER, YOUR LEG HAS BECOME AS PRESENT...and mum doesn't stop her L.A.M.E joke...by taking pictures of your burnt wound and after that saying that it is other pic and when i see it,it is your wound and i can't seem to notice that coming and i always fall to her L.A.M.E joke....i am growing tired of that....

oh what a relief....i feel good...i feel so good right now and there is no words which can describe it...i know i may seem bad but you must think of others to...

december

my life has been dull this few days all because of my sis leg...i had been trapped in my house like foreva...only just now i went out for job hunting with my cousins with no luck at all since it is christmas...will wait till cny come then we will go job hunting again together......

its such a bore stuck at home with no where to go...this week is like the most fucking days of my life cause my mum don't have the heart to leave my sis alone whose thigh had been accidentally burnt when she go off the wrong side of the motorcylce few days ago at our village....

she had been rather annoying and irritating...i feel sorry for my mom,my small sis,my small bro and myself cause we all had to be a maid to her by helping her and listening orders from her....i'm like so PISSED OFF!!!!i've been evil at her by teasing the way she walk and laughing by heads off though i know its bad...but i can't take it...pity her though....and she is always scolding me for my bad behaviour as i had been complaining non-stop about being stuck at home all the time and sulking and shouting and screaming my heads off....

my life these days had been nothing but watching what the tv programmes had to offer...helping my business enthusiastic mum rolling the newspaper to make basket and what-so-ever and listening to little siblings ANNOYING shouting,crying,screaming and non-stop fight thoroughout the days which makes my head go crazy.....

THIS!!!is like my most annoying and boring month of the year with the non-stop rain because of the moonsoon month...and we had to stay at home and can do nothing other than wishing it would stop....

can't wait for next year though...hoping to have a good year ahead....i have cut my hair and finally got the green light to dye my hair..my lil sis and i dye our hair already...i want to start afresh with a "new life,new beginning" vision....

mad

i donnoe why but i am noticing myself scolding others lately...my cousins had come over to my house for a few days and the house become like a childcare centre....there is noise all day long with all the shouting done by my beloved cousin....

things had not been so well this day...i am like a battleship ready to strike my mum anytime.i am giving her the silent treatment and yesterday she went berseck with and pick a fuss out of me over some issues.it is the same issues regarding food.it is up to me whether i want to eat or not.and she kept repeating the same HURTFUL sentences...and i was like standing there...piss off with her while she kept making noise to me...in my heart i am already cursing her stuff like "just shut up your $%#*& mouth and stop complaining....!!!!!!!i know i am not perfect...and if u hate me just let me die" sort of thing....i so HATE her sometimes....

she is also a complete...i repeat COMPLETE LIAR!!!she says she is gonna dye my hair for me...but guess what?as usual she don't dye my hair for me and completely ignore me when i ask her to do my hair for me....i'm so piss off and my patience is wearing thin and i can explode anytime...and guess what???just now...a few minutes ago she ask me to cook....how can she????urrrghh!!!!i feel like crying already....

my cousins which come over was alright...though my primary 2 cousin keep demanding me to do something for her....i am so pissed off with her sometimes but i love her...she is also can be quite stubborn too sometimes....but fara...shes like a total westerner kid.she,like me,don't like to eat rice.the day before she eat 5 plates off spagetthi noodle.but she manage to stay slim.and i forgot to mention tough.she is soooo like me...but she is an athele though liket o run about and is so hyperactive.

my other favourite cousin which is in australia will be coming home tom i guess.so miss them....can't wait to see what sourveneir they migh gave me and the scrapbook my cuz aisyah had promise...if she remember lah.

here are some photos of me and my cuz camwhoring inside my bedroom.for the past few days my sis had been sleeping with me and cuzin cause she is scared as my cuz keep shouting lantai 13!!!lantai 13!!!hahax:)miss them already..and my mum had promise to go to swimming pool together tom if it doesn't rain in woodlands swimming complex.

in just a few short minutes i am going to go to my cuzens house as they are going to visit their cuzens in australia tom....buy some present for their cuzens in australia which consist of heart necklace which i buy in chameleon....i am like so NERVOUS for them...

F.Y.I i had just had a great prom nite at aranda country club last monday in downtown east...it took me 2 hours taking public transportation to go there...my feet are crying in pain as i am wearing about 5-7 inch heels....its killing me but for beauty sake i do it.....prom nite was the BOMBZ!!!!had a great and enjoyable day that nite and everything goes well....the dj was great..he was HILARIOUS!!!love him to the max!!!the food was ok-ok though....dancing was the major,i say MAJOR BOMBZ!!!1everyody had a great dance....my classmate broke her heels while dancing...but guess what?she continued dancing bare footed!!!!i danced with my gf that nite...it was so fun!!feel as if we are clubbing....lastly the prom king is imran and the prom queen is a chinese girl from sec 5...the event finishes at 10.45-11.00pm and my mum can't stop calling me!!how irritating!!!!i go home on my gf parents car...

blue colour for the day...

blue is the colour for today.....and the picture i had just post is lily allen....anything that is interesting today besides the exam paper is america next top model and something interesting about my sis.....i had just finish eating dinner with my family....nothing much can be said today except that just now i go out with my pal,shidah after exam ard cwp....she had her pimple near her mouth burst into blood...(hehes)pity her...actually my inetntion to go to cwp is to collect the photos my mum had ask too...but after that shidah ask me why not we go round the cwp for window shopping and i end up coming home late...aniway it was fun....we talk about many things eg:like what we will be doing after exam....and so on..and how we are going to miss school....

okay today geography ppr was quite tough although i must say it is manageable...except WITH THE ROCKING TABLE WHICH IRRITATES ME!!!!when i see the paper i am going to cry...the map was difficult...okay i do not want to talk about that..it is already over anyway...just now my sis ngigau...or should i say had a bad dream...she wake pu scolding my mother because she thought it was already seven in the morning...my mother and i was already laughing like hell...hehes...

this saturday my cuzins will be coming over...my granparents too are coming i guess...so i had actually asked my mum beforehand to cook laksa penang which is my favourite..i had crave it for a long time beside the timeout chocolate....tom my mom will be going to wet market..i will not be following of course as i always wake up late at 12pm in the afternoon....i'm having stomachache now..hehes..due to too much eating...but my body is still like stick and my mum had been commenting on how small my sis and my own boobs compared to her when she is sec 5 when she had big boobs and how mampat she was...eeergghhh!!!it is so frustrating....if one day i done boobs augmentation i want to see her reaction...hah!!don't get offended after reading this okay...

gotta go go now...i want to surf the net...and mayb play some barbie games or any dress up games..hahas!!!

♥mr a.....

♥i love you....i think...

exams,exams and exams!!!!!!!!!

Life is one long struggle in the dark.

tom is my geo exams for o lvl....i can't help but worry whether i am going to do find since not much preparation had been done as i had been focusing on studying for my chemistry...aniwae today chemistry was fine and manageable...it is not as tough as i had expected though i do not have high expectations of it since i'm afraid that i might dissappoint myself....overall everything that i study had come out which was a major relief....beyond that everything is fine...(i think)hope to do well this time....



i had been such a spender this few days..i can't seem to stop spending money...my 'duit raya' had finished due to all the spending....now i readed to buy this snakeskin show at outfitter at cwp which match with my handbag which i decided to bring to the prom...its all about prom now....i just bought 3 necklaces,4 earings and 2 hairclips just now!!in one day....i spend almost up to $15...what the heck..i'm trying to save my money...but it seem i just can't...my sis had been noisy about finding work but both my parents object to it since she is still studying...(haha!!!!)right now my major celebrity obsession is lily allen..she is so cute...like her song too...anyway i'm going off to do some more studying now..wish me luck kaes!!!