♥Why o why....i'm stuck in this lie again♥

♥Living a lie is never a good thing...♥

So,yesterday was a great day...i supposed it was.Maybe.My little anak sedare just make my day.....Especially the little one...so cute...mcm&mintak kena lempang...=p

Skipping that....i survived listening to MJ 12 till 2 am....with the lights off....it scares me at first....but...pintu bilik bukak....so oklah tu....considering this is the first i listen to ghost stories with ,me, who is the only one awake inside the room....
Today will be a busy week according to my mum-lah.....Haiyyoo....Jalan raya still belom habis....
Tak nak ikot can?No mood lah....
And i receive the most unique sampul duit raya ever since i was born.....LoL.
My mak cik weave a ketupat and insert the money and candies inside.At first i was like...why the heck is she giving me ketupat?But cute lah.....Then later found out...duit raya was inside....So creative lah her...and my mum want to copy her....Like she knows how to anyam ketupat jek...=p
Out of the topic....my mind was not in the right state for this few days....
I'm scared.Scared of my feelings towards everybody.
Hmmmm......
And nadia...the song tak ku sangka tak ku duga....sungguh the sedap....

Enough talking.

Live and laugh like there's no tomorrow.

Sarang haeyo=)

*my little angels...*
♥

♥Sometimes accepting is the best♥

♥Dalam hidup kita harus pandang ke depan,yg lalu adalah pengajaran buat kita♥

Biar terluka
Hapuskan sangsi mu
Ialah petunjuk buat segalanya
Arahkan diri padaNya

I'm holding on to that phrase above.
Things happen for a reason.
Enough talking.
Live and laugh like there's no tomorrow.
Sarang haeyo=)
♥

♥Tears and Drama♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

Seriously.I have nothing better to do but rot at home and watch tv or walking endlessly around the house like one maniac,helping mama folding clothes...clean the house…and yadayada….(mcm housewife kan…hiisshh…)But hey..isn’t this better than having to wake up at 7+ plus in the morning for school….Oh how I dread this last few weeks of holiday…..

I’m currently hooked on anything Korean.Craving for kimchi and this one food which I forgot the name but it look so delicious and spicy.Hehe…=p and also I’m been watching this programme called ‘Let’s speak Korean!’,'Chit Chat with beautiful ladie's and watching 'my fair lady'.I learn a new Korean sentence called kunya cibe kayagesayo…(donnoe lah if my pronunciation is correct)meaning I think I just want to go home…and chigab meaning wallet. All of this Korean thingy started all over again all thanks to fiza o programme at ria…..gerek per…..

And I think my raya-ing session will only start on Friday……Like mama said…"kiter biler hujung2 nak habes hari raya baru start nak berayer…org sumer dah habes rayer kiter baru nak start…" haha=p tau tkper….Speaking of raya…I have been crying my eyes out every day @ 9pm….asl 9pm kau mesti dah nmpk aku kat depan tv…vip ticket katerkan….melalak2….until 11pm which is when the drama habes..….Haiyyoo....Sedih2 cerita rayer....

Enough talking.
Live and laugh like there's no tomorrow.
Sarang haeyo!!!!=)
♥

♥2nd day of rayer♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

Some photo-taking moments....Tak sempat ambek gmbr with the rest of the cuzzie...masing2 lepak....(as in tidor) kat grandma house.
Not going anywhere for the 2nd day of raya...Just dudok rumah...chill2 with the rest of the family members.
Kay.I'm bored.
Enough talking.

Live and laugh like there's no tomorrow =)

♥

♥Selamat hari raya♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

It's 2.24am in the morning.And i just can't sleep.My 7 year old sis accompany me,as like me,she is not yet sleepy though she is yawning like every few minutes.Called from school yesterday and inform us(practically mama) that she had become a prefect.Primary 1 dah adr prefect2 ni sumer...Cepat nyer.....
Skipping that..rayer is just in a few hours time.Mama will be cooking our yearly raya food which is kuah lodeh with lontong...Yum2.....And i can already taste my grandma ayam masak merah and my grandad own made ketupat and rendang......
And with that..ending this post with:
Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri=)
Saya ingin memohon sepuluh jari memohon maaf,jika ada salah& silap atau terkasar bahasa.......maklumlah...dah bergurau tak perasan kdg2.....hehe=)
And have an enjoyable hari raya with your loved ones...and semoga kiter dpt bertemu dgn bulan ramadan al-mubarak tahun depan...~~Ammiinn~~
*senang2 singgah lah rumah ehk=)*
Enough talking.
Live and laugh like there's no tomorrow.
♥

♥Cepar nyer rayer♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

2 days and it will be hari raya.Time pass a little bit too fast this year.
Bapak took a day off today.And he vacuum the whole house including all the rooms.
But i feel more comfortable doing my own vacuuming.Lain-lah klau org laki vacuum rumah.
Alone at home.Parents and my lil' bro should be @ cwp bazaar buying food for breakfast.
Craving for tom yam after watching this afc channel.Lately i don't know why i'm been craving for every food that i watch at tv.So,for tom yam substitute,cook myself..or should i say microwave-ing mushroom soup.Ok-lah tu....But i still want tom yam.Kalahkan orang pregnant gitu.
Today mark keela 1 year of singlehood.Hope you found someone better than your *toot toot toot* ex kay dear.Like you say b4...byk lagi ikan swimming2 in the laut....byk lagi yg bagos2 cume belom jumper lagi jek kan....hehes......=)And to sab..hope your relationship will last forever and and....aku nak jadi maid-of-honour kay2...=p
Enough talking.
Live and laugh like there's no tomorrow.
♥

♥Dreams♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

Dream a super bad dream.Oh god.Maybe it is just a sign for me to just........
How i didn't want to do.
But..can i believe in dreams?
Is it just me refusing to believe and making excuses?
Cause some dreams are just total opposites.
Or is this for real?
Whatever it is...Redha jer lah ehk....
Maybe yg terbaik bukan yg terbaik after all.....

♥

♥LalalaLa♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

AM I OK?AM I OK?
I'M NOT OK!!!!
This is all my sister fault.... i got missed calls and she don't even bother to tell me....
She was like"ADEK TAK TAU!" mcm nak nanges aku....
Now did i know why i'm throwing tantrums....It is because i'm pms-ing...and i am having period for the SECOND bloody toootooot time.....menyakitkan hati-lah.....
It's been 2 years in a row now....
Sometime i just wish i am a neat freak.
Seeing other people neat bedroom makes me look at mine like it is the most messiest room ever.
I'm still asking myself the same questions...
And my sis been saying the same bloody answer....It's tiring...I need a rest...I want to go vacation far far away...and return back here with no recalling of any tragic incident.....

Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

*do you still think of me,the way that i still think of you?imy...thats all...haaiisshh...naddy dah start merepek...bye!!*
*isly*

♥Still merepek♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

Am supposed to be spring cleaning my room...but i end up dengar-ing lagu rayer and making myself tear up over the kesyahduh-ness of the song if there's such a word.
Am having emotional roller coaster ride...Naek roller coaster feelings aku....best kaper....mcm orang tak betol aku kekadang...
This year i just don't have the mood to rayer....Firstly because of the unkept bedroom which me & my small sibilings(mostly them) manage to keep clean only for a while.Second because of work,i'm just to tired to do tarawih...boring-Lah ser...Thirdly..just plain takder mood...So the memboringkan....Below is the conversation that take place at bazaar cwp yesterday:
Me:asl ah this year mcm tkdr mood nak rayer....heran ser...mcm pelik gitu....Klau dulu,semangat...
Sis:ermm..ntah eh...Maybe psl kiter tak tengok tv tak...
Me:A'ahlah...agak nyer lah tu...tu psl..(remembering this game show at suria psl rayer,seems satisfied with sis ans)
Mama is saving budget this year by not purchasing new bedsheet and langsir for me and sis...Whatever lah...i don't care.....
Attitude betol aku hari ni....haiishh....
Just pressurise over some things maybe....psl kerja kot...(self-inflicted)...entahlah....
Before my merepek-ness start again...Naddy is saying byebye....=)

Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥Today's post is merepek♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

Currently addicted to this song..Sepasang Kurung Biru..Macam nak nangis daku mendengarnya....Haiisshh...
This few days..I'm getting short-tempered...Firstly because of work..and also because...i think i'm PMS-ing...I'm crying for no apparent reason.And i will flare at the most tini-est of things...
And i'm craving for KFC's....
I start to talk nonsense already...and i will tweet unnecessary stuff at twitter..See...My mind is already haywire...so i welcome YOU to watch me tumble down..cause the silence is killing me bit by bit...
Subconscious means imperfectly or not wholly conscious/the totality of mental processes of which the individual is not aware; unreportable mental activities.Cause i think i subconsciously think of IT again...
Multi-tasking...Helping my sis with her unfinished homework.And also searching for henna design to be print later...

Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥Can't get you out of my head♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

So,on wednesday reached home at about 11.30pm.Oh how i hate afternoon shift.It just sucks my life out.
No cashiering for me.I have a shortage of $20.45 for cash.My management is going to pay half of it..so Yah...Luckily....
Hari Raya is in 2 weeks time..Time passes by so quickly without we even realising it.Am hammering my head on which brand of contact lenses to buy...Freshkon?Hmmm....
Suppose to paint my bedroom walls..but i guess with work on my hand..Haaiissh....
Cause everywhere I go
No matter what I do boy
I just can't get you out of my head
So it annoys me

Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥Happy smiling♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥
Just reached home from work.Today was full-shift.10am-10pm.It was like HELL i tell you.
I have to restrain myself from always seeing the time.And it was all because of this uncle who took 3 days of MC including tomorrow and now everybody is suppose to cover up for him.Bagos sesangat.Pfft!!!Luckily tomorrow mine was from 5pm-10pm.
But...even though i kept making myself busy,there's like something missing.A hole of some sort.And it is making me just go crazy thinking about it.
Whatever it is,i hope it is not what i think it is.
Cause whenever i start thinking,i might go 'drunk'.
Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥I know who i am♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

I miss the annual gathering of cousins due to work.And i can't stop cursing.
Like WTH-lah....I miss their funny jokes.I miss their laughs.I miss the gossip sessions between us girls.
And yar.I like slapping people when i laugh.Betol tak Aisyah...Sempat 'mengumpat' ehk.....=p Tapi memang betol pon.Hehe....
Seriously facebook make us reconnect with old friends.Like how i find my old primary and secondary school friends....
I seriously miss my friend yang satu itu.Its neither from pri or sec.
~~Ingin ku belai,ingin ku capai tapi aku sedar itu adalah hanya khayalan ku semata.Kerna Dia bukan untukku miliki~~
Again.'Drunk'.
Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥I'm still drunk♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

Today my shift is from 6pm-10pm.So treat myself by sleeping late and waking up late.Haha=p
Woke up with a sore throat.My voice is husky.Sexy husky.Haha.
Mama's going to JB to buy small sis' baju rayer...I think this year hari raya colour theme is orange as most of the family members are wearing orange colour clothing.
Lagu rayer are making me cry.So nostalgic.
Kuih rayer makes me hungry.
Baju rayer makes me wanting rayer too come faster.
And mama just found out about the ticket i'm buying.Sh**lah..Damn...
Now she knows the reason on why i insist on working.
Everything's behind you
But the hope still stands beside you
Kay.I'm drunk.Like seriously.
Dah cukop.
Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥Picture perfect memories♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

~Women needs men.Men needs women.We need each other to be complete~
And NO.There's no one special in my life right now.
Biar Tuhan yang menentukan.=)
No rushing rushing.Just go with the flow.Nampak sungai?Gitulah.Go with the flow.......
I think i'm drunk but i don't drink.Haha=p
Memories are the only thing that we can hold on to.
I think i'm a little drunk cause i just heard mama mentioning your name.
Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥I wish i can turn back time♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

Time do pass by so quickly.Close eye,Open eye...It has been almost 2 weeks of ramadhan.Cepat nyer!!!!Hmmphh='(
And blogger,i have a note to you.I have already figured out how to put pictures and do centre aligning and all.Haha=p Damn you!!!!!wakakaka!!!!Kay.Random.
Just finished reading Match Me If You Can.It is so a GREAT,GREAT,GREAT!!!5/5 rated book...I laugh,i cry.Emotional nah aku nih..Wakaka=p Dah born sensitive...what can i do kankankan!!!!*Grins*
Was smiling and a tear almost fell out from my eye socket while reading at the train.And people gave me weird faces.Like WTH!!!I don't care lah ehk...I don't give a damn.=)Wah3...Garang lah naddy...hehehe.....
Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥It aches till the very end of my body♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

I just need ANYBODY to call me.Cause i'm sick of everything.Let just pretend it never happen.
Just a random post.
Haaiisshh....
Till then.
Happy fasting...=)
and below is my new boyfriend. Believe me?Scroll down for the answer.

Haha=p MCM BETOL.It's my cousin from JB...and just found out that he works as a drummer&guitarist...Biler mau kahwen ah...=p
Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......
There goes another story.Who knows who was i thinking of the whole day.Bitter sweet.Sugar and spice&everything nice.But will those ingredient always end up perfect?I guess not always.But one day it will.Insya-allah

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥

♥I still mengharap.Benci.♥

♥Sesungguhnya ku resah♥

First day was ok i guess.Posted at AMK...At block 703... those shophouses...if you know the place, come find me there cause seriously, i need some form of entertainment.
The manager was friendly and so do the rest of the staff except this one irritating store manager.The manager told me that i have to work for 5 hours but here she goes telling me that i need to work from 10-6pm tomorrow.So which one should i listen to?Pathetic lah...
This time the store is not large.Like IMM..IMM was super large and i get headaches just for seeing it..It was small and manageable so yah...For the time being.
I slept all day today after 'break-fasting'...haha=p Step puasa jek....I guess i'm just not used to it yet.Not feeling good lah..I got headaches and my tastebud just don't seem to be tasting anything.It was fine a few hours ago before i sleep.Hmmm...
Till then.
Happy fasting...=)

Goodbye my loved ones...Stay healthy&happy aites =).......

~~May god bless you readers..=)~~

*naddy loves you people*

♥Tuhan Berikanlah Aku Cinta♥