dear diary,

have you ever feel this vast of emptiness inside of your heart.
the feeling of whereby you want to shout but you just cant.
you just want to cry but you just can't.
so you just keep it bundle inside.
curl up in a bundle in the corner of your heart.
 or have you feel those tears running down those cheek.catching yourself staring long outside the window.with emptiness inside your heart.
and you can feel this feeling inside of your throat.the feeling of when you want to cry but you have to hold back the tears for the smile that everyone wants to see.
if only you knew.
if only you knew.
if only you knew.
if you only just knew.
Oh Allah,help this girl who has just became a slave to love.
O'Allah,help me to heal this broken heart.
O'Allah help me to keep this heart strong.
O'Allah help me to love you, only you,the creator of all souls.
Because I know,when everything came crashing you will provide me with all the warmth and reminds me that everything will be ok despite me disobeying and forgetting you in the past.
O'Allah thank you for always being there.
And I know Allah you will never break this little heart of mine.
Thank you for reminding me.,
Thank you for reminding me to step back into reality.

with lots of love