♥There were sounds in my head,whispering...don't let go♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=)   

Yesterday...was not good.

I apologise.

I'm on my dangerous mode again.

Dengar lagu yang pedih2....

Mum saw my facebook status and ask kenaper KaK?

I feel like crying and hugging her.

She read my sms.

Started asking question...and i was like "uh-huh".

After which i went to bathe,when i realize she must have notice the contact name that i had given that particular person.

Right now,i just want somebody to sit beside me,listen to everything that i say,keep their mouth shut....agree on everything that i say even though its wrong....and hug me.

I don't need people telling me you should do this,do that.I mean..ya..i deserve someone better.

But....haiiyyoo....i still can't accept the fact.I still can't put the past behind me.

God...I feel shitty these days. 

Oklah....Naddy signing out.....

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥BBq!!!!=)♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=)   
So yesterday was....Jeng Jeng Jeng.....

BBQ DAY!!!!=)

It was super duper fun....although the supposedly trip to swimming complex was canceled.....

ThaNk you many2 to SITI AISHAH BTE ASMAT for coming although kau baru balek dari kerja....

SayaNG kau!!!!=D

The meeting with my "Sunrise" for the first time was awkward but fun.....=)

Glad that person enjoy it.....teeheee....=)

Although before meeting "Sunrise" i went into a short depression.....

But with the help of my sayangs,i manage to pull through....

Thanks a Lot guys....couldn't have manage it all without all of you...especially to Moth-ER....=) Your advice was put to good use.

Whereas for mama,well today we had a daughter-mother talk in the kitchen.....

I love you.....Your advise will be put to good use too...

Hopefully what my sayangs say will come true.....=p

Looking forward to another outing with "Sunrise" and BBQ outing again this coming nov/dec insyallah....amiinn~~~  =)

Pictures uploaded at FaceBook and Photobucket:

 

 

 

 

 

Oklah....Naddy signing out.....

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥you are saudade♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=)   
Cantek tak!!!Cantekk tak!!!!Black and white pictures is on my list.=p

.Open your eyes....The truth is out there.

Formal attire tomorrow.G2000 is having sale.Bagos.I want that blazer i saw yesterday mama.=)

White long sleeve shirt,black pants,patent heel shoes,mama's charles&keith bag...and i am set to go....=D

I'm a business women besok...don't play2 aites....I'll bite you then you know....=p

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Kak Uda's daughter name is L........i also donnoe....berbelit2 lidah i you know nk sebot my anak sedare nyer namer.....will be visiting them either today or tom......yyyeehhhaaaaa!!!!=)

interruption:

MY LIPS BLEED AGAIN!!!skrang!!!saket!!!=( it taste of blood...EEwww......

K dah...back to story....hehe....

Both the mother and baby is sihat alhamdullilah.....

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My year 2 module is confirm.5 days again.Failed my science for sem 1.

Macam maner tak fail.The facilitator keep giving me F.I knowlah F is my favourite alphabet...but no F for any of the module can?....Even my cuzzie knows her.She gives me tips on how not to get an F from that teacher who likes to give F to her students.Reminds me of fairly god parent cartoon show...timmy's  teacher.F all the way.

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Now,i know how irritated my sis and mama were when i keep asking them to guess every single thing that i am saying.Like,"mama,adk teka apa ending dier?menyampah ser tengok..."

and they will be like "mls lah nak teka,bilang jek"

"alah!!!teka jek lah..." then they will give me the irritated face and from there i will tell them what happen.

Met a person yg samer perangai mcm aku....Haiiyoo...irritating you know.....

And my sis ketawa mcm nak rak......when i said

"ADK!!!!!baru ku tau betapa irritating nyer org biler org suroh adek teka benda"

"haha=p padan muka....baru kakak tau aper yg adk raser!!!"

and we are laughing terbahak2 over this the whole day......

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BBQ!!!BBQ!!!BBQ!!!!teeeeheeee=D

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i think,i raser....hmmmm......am i?maybe? if yes bagos......if not.....hmmm......

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I know my post might be merepek.....Layankan jek lah kaes.....=p

Oklah....Naddy signing out.....

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥Sick♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=)   
First and foremost....
INNALILALAHIWAINNAHIRAJIUN 
to my mama's friend anak sedara who just past away today.
He's turning 13 this year.And i can't believe he was actually the one who salam me last year.
Mudah-mudahan dier ditempatkan di tempat yg terbaik di sisi-NYA.Amiinnnn~~~ 
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Skipping that,PMS.PMS.PMS.
The symptoms are there.
Tired easily.Sleepy.Frequent shouting.Frequent crying.Non-stop toilet trips.Headche.Nausea.
Anytime lah nie.Ouh....
Sleep at 2.30 plus morning yesterday.Can't sleep.Woke up at 8 am.Ignored the alarm clock and went back to sleep till mama woke me up.
Baru planning nak PON.-.-
My lips crack and bleed for the hundredth time.Bagos per.Minum air byk pon tak jln.
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My kakak sedare will be warded today.It was past her due date and the baby girl don't want to come out.
Biaser ehk baby!!!=p Nak have the same birthday with your kakak yg mak cik kepo is it....Hehehe=p
All the best to her.Will pray for the best for both the mother&daughter.
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A few days more till BBQ!!!=) Best2.....Going to bring someone along....Sabby was screaming macam nk rak dlm toilet.Hehe=p
Entahlah...but having second thoughts ah.Just kawan jek ehk....You know,i know.Jangan expect anything.
Okay....Aku berbual pon dh sort dot......
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And my secrets dah out..Congrats ehk.Haiyoo......And i'm not changing it.
Btw:FormaL aTTire on FRIDAY!!!!!!!=)

Oklah....Naddy signing out.....

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥*Ten miles from town and I just broke down*♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=)  

My korean lesson tak menjadi....Been superlazy lately....pms....Understooded my dear?

Haiyoo.....I missed  listening to 96.3....8-10pm.....I want to update my lappy with the latest korean songs!!!!Tak habes2 ngar lagu 4minute lah...2NE1 lah....BEG lah....haiyyooo.....
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Skipping that....Sleepover at sab's house was superb....it was a suprise visit to my 'anak'.....hehe=p
Her katil was so the comfy you know.....I can sleep there all day and go into coma.....Got to count the shooting star and stare at the bright blue sky yesterday....I want to go to ur house again!!!!
Unfortunately....i sort of ngigau....Hear kak siti alarm clock at 5 am....and i thought it was my phone....and i was like cursing under my breath while pressing on the non-existence button which i usually does at home....
It was the joke of the day......-.-"
Woke up super early.....7 plus.....Ngantok bangets.....Those who knows me well will know that i am NOT a morning person....Pagi2 makan nasi goreng...drink milo and karaok using sabbie's boyfie X box......best2....high score per....Rezeki bgn pagi....haha=p

So,end my day today helping her cute sister do homework....Wanted to wait till she reached home from work....But mama call asking to go home....Furthermore....i start missing my mama already....boohooo....
I tell you one thing.....I can gain 3 kg ah if i stay at sab's house....kerja makan jek.....hehe=p i like i like.....
Gave kak siti and ela my FAMOUS de'amor kiss...hehe=) 
And my rambot yg kusut is not longer kusut thanx to....Ela and Kak Siti!!I love you....haha=D
Went home showing off to mama my now straight hair.......
And...my room is in a mess....Mum used my room to campak some of the things inside the store since she was cleaning the store room....Saket jantong jap....... 
-My closing ceremony qoute-
*There is many fishes in the sea,but i still want THAT fish.*

Oklah....Naddy signing out.....

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥PeekTures hides a thousand emotions♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=) 

 pEEktures!!!=)

Found this on my KaK  Long's(mama big sister 1st daughter) facebook:

Khairiah Firdaus Si Budak Primary 2 nya hal - Maths Question..... Write in words - 250 and my genius son answered : Two hundred and Fifty-zero.....Pengsan mummy dia.... :-o

HAHAHAHA=P Ahmad Zhini!!!U are so the clever you know......Auntie Dirah proud of you!!!But next time don't do this again kaes....Study hard=)  LoL=p Or else pengsan your mummy nanti....

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And....ILI!!!!THANK YOU MANY2 MOTH-ER FOR THE EPOK2!!!!=p

I SARANG YOU LAH!!!HEHE=P 

 Yesterday was great lah...let's do it again ok.....standby....Scene 1 Take 1 Action!!!LoL=p 

And my shoulder hurts.....Lepas satu2....Haiyo......Bau koyok tak sedap!!!Macam org tualah....Hehe=p 

Oklah....Naddy signing out......

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥notes♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=) 

"Aishah,Azura,Ili Atiqah,Nadia,Sabrina,Shakeela" 

Sarang Haeyo girls!!!=)

*kiss on the cheek each* hehe.......

Ehk....i receive this note on my com....tak tau lah ehk pompan maner yg buat:

S:"N,u accept all of this tak?"
"i can't...aku takot..i don't want all of this to go" 

I: "kau gi carik laki laen sudah"
    "tengok lah keadaan" 

"kau raser dier ok tak skrang?"
   S:"dh cukop...jgn ckp psl si hk tu...nanti kau sedih" 

A:"N...dh lamer tau....kau maseh lagi?"
    "Haiixxx....." 

F:"kau nk kenal ngan adr org nie samer age ngan aku"
      "-.-,S!!! matair kau tk habes2!!!=p"
    S: "aku call dier skrang!!!hehehe=p"

N:"please eh,for the sake of me....get over him...i syg you mah"
    ":'( "

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ATTENTION!!!

To NADIA:I MISS YOU ALREADY!!!!!*HUG!!!KISS!!!I LOVE YOU!!!take care dear....sobsob :'-(

To ZURA:babe!!!take care aites!!!naddy love you many2!!!!=)*kiss kiss* jgn luper mkn ubat yer..... 

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Btw...nak ngok gmbr?ili MOTH-ER!!!the rest i upload at photobucket ok.....;-)

*meh kiter ambek gmbr act2 ngah berbual kat phone!!!=D*

 

*Kiter jadik promoter telephone nak?

Sab:Samsung is a good for you=)see2...i pointing arrow to it*

Ili&Naddy:LG phone is good for you my love!!!=)*

padahal maseng2 nk iphone...=p

*ili:blueek!!! =p naddy:smile=) sab:weeeeee!!!=D*

*naddy:meh aku kasi aku nyr famous kiss...=)*

*naddy famous de'amor kiss!!!=) sabby:awww...i like2...!!!!weeee....=D*

*ili:hmmphh naddy:AAARRGGHH!!! sab: perhal ngan dier nie?*

Ok dah!!!byebye!!!naddy love you many2!!!!=)

Oklah....Naddy signing out......

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥i love my sygs=)♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=) 

First and foremost....Nice right the above pic....Ili!!!Wonderwomen is back baybeh.....hehe=p

Tapi the contact name that i give is still going to be the same....You know,i know,sab know...ais...nanti aku bilang.....=)

CoNgratulations to my Sayang's below:

1)Sabrina baby....Mummy and Nanny proud of you!!!hehehe=p18 points baybeh.....But regardless of your result we will still love you!!!!!Deeper than the ocean and bigger than the universe ;-)

2)Nur Farhana Bte Sarlim for scoring  15 points!!!Jangan pilih course yang tak byk benda nk kena baca kay dear....haha=p I love you!!!=) 

3)Shakeela Parveen for getting A2 for science....I love you too!!!=)

4)To Seseorang who score B4 for his English....Mama and me are happy for you....;-)

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To Soleha cuzzie who didn't do as well...don't give up.....No matter what..we the sedare's will always stand behind you....You have try your hardest.....Remember during rayer you bring your physics book along to nenek's house?Don't be discourage aites.... i love you....;-)

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Skipping that,nadia will be returning tom.....Sungguh sedih....meleleh air materku....:'( hehehe.....

Hopefully can hantar you to the airport.......Extract from the convo that we had this morning:

"remember eh..when im gone. kau pls eh dont look back.. go try new things. keep urself busy. n study hard

cheyy
 permintaan dari kwn ar
 syg kau kan
 ahaha"

I LOVE YOU NADIA ABDUL RAHIM!!!!=)

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Kebetulan...my sis says it's the year of the singles....because in her facebook 10 people went from being "in a relationship" to "single".....then the comment for the single status...why why why???so....this is for the singles out there who are reading my post.....

If I'm going to be alive, then I might as well be incredible. I want to do more than just exist.

Now...all the singles...including me.....hehe.....stay happy2 aites....Naddy loves you ;-)

My sayang2 who is not mention.....I Love You!!!!!

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Oklah....Naddy signing out......

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥Sarang Them....=)♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=) 

This few days have been good and bad.But one thing remains the same.
So this is an overview of my week:
Friday-meet up with nadia for a chat since she was at woodlands which also turn out to be the last since she will be returning to Perth on the 17th...Boohooo='(. The supposed trip to changi to eat at popeye was cancel.So ate at pastamania where we order creamy chicken each and a banana pizza for the desert at causeway....
Have a good chat with her at SSC....oh boy...i never know it was  that deep....Macam nak meleleh airmata aku.....End the day at aldmiralty where she got to meet with someone after almost 2 hours of waiting.....
Receive sms by mama saying that dad was asking of my whereabout.....Get away with the balek lambat thingy....Hehehe.....Suming the whole day...got to know a lot of things that are memeranjatkan.....
Things that people do for love....And it was good though....Hoping for the best for them.... ;)
Saturday: Accompany bestie for RP open house.....Bump into cuzzie who was a sort of guider there....
Went to sabby's house....And boy what a good day it was.....More of it yeah*wink wink* =)
Mama caught me crying.....I know she suspect something was amiss since i was locking the door for too long.....Use my jaw which was hurting as an excuse since i heard my jaw crack when i was eating.....
Going to the doctor soon to check on the jaw.....
About the caught red handed crying  thing...and the excuse i gave...i don't know if she believe it...cause she was suddenly talking about guys which is weird......But i think she knows.....
"Everytime kau ingat pasal dier,teros ingat pasal aku ,mak kau and kwn2 kau semua.....Jangan sedih2 kaes......"
Oh I Love You Sabrina Bte Mansoor....And thanks guys for the constant hug...Appreciate it lots....
I'm okay...But  is just in one of those low moments when i can cry suddenly kat maner2  macam org tebiat......
And Nadia.....will do what you advice me to do......I love you=)

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Oklah....Naddy signing out......

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥True♥

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥Saat ku merindukan dirimu.....♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=) 

 

Cute tak the above gambar.....Satu romeo satu juliet....Aku chop jadi juliet....Anyone who wants to be my romeo?=p
Yesterday with Sabby was great....Asal datang rumah dier mesti adr makanan.....hehe....i likey....=)

So collect my dvd from her and the menu for that day was maggi laksa!!!!After makan maggi kiter aper lagi....I change clothes then talk2 on her bed and stare under her forever blue sky and put our imagination to a start and arguing over what shape the cloud  is.....Then after that....Snoring atas katil.......hehe.....
Decide to karaok but unluckily for us....the dvd player was on a protest since our last karaok session there....So yah......she decide to play the piano and i sang to the song sonata musim salju....at least it was ok.....rather than tk karaok langsong kan....But instead of snow.....hujan.....sungguh tk membestkan...So now...thanks to yesterday was addicted to that song....Sungguh mendayu2 lagu dier......=)
And also ili pop out after buying her and her mom popcorn.....And i got what i want from them yesterday....Awwww......Lega sikit....dapat melepaskan stress di hati.....Jom kiter gi pohon beringin ngan baju kebaya kiter with corset underneath and dudok kat swing and nyanyi....Confirm bestkan ili!!!!=p
 Ili the wonderwomen clothes yg aku pinjam kan kau simpan jek kaes.... I buy new one.....hahaha=p
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"Your heart says stay and battle the pain, but your mind says leave for all this isnt needed, broken into pieces for that one an only. But follow your heart because the heart can only take so much."Oklah....Naddy signing out......

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥ someone mess with my heart since mid 2009♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=) 

HAPPY NEW YEAR TUESDAY MUTTONS!!!!!!=)

This is driving me nuts.I want to makan kacang can?

Stress lah.And those sleepless night is contributing to my migraines.
This just sucks lah.Don't go away can?I will find a way to bear with it.

At last the girl in the book got to meet him.She found her prince.I'm happy for someone who doesn't even exist.And i love grace and jimi.Tak guna nyer spencer.
Skipping that,holiday...cepatlah datang....38 more days jek...Klau aku rajin aku kerja and buy myself an iphone.Watson is so so so takder dalam list....Any job recommendations anyone?

Am waiting by the phone to wait for a call to wait for the announcement of my new anak sedare which is due soon....Kak Uda..Biler kak uda nak beranak...tak sabar nie....hehehe......
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Dier takkan tau...Aper yg kiter nak tak semua yg kiter akan dapat....Example kiter tak dapt kahwen ngan anak raja......Kiter tak dapat rewind time....Okay enough.
I jump you jump.Where is my jack?Otak kater jangan....Hati kater mau......Degil.

Emergency 995:Calling Sabrina,Aishah,Ili.......

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Skipping that,chat with my darling sister who is just in the next room.She is the darling sister who drives me insane with her kurang ajar-ness.

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This is the last one,try it.I smile like one crazy maniac at class when i read this.It works with me.So truelah ni benda.

Cara Untuk Mengetahui Kamu Mencintai Seseorang...

12:
Kamu bercakap dengan dia hingga lewat malam dan bila kamu tidur, kamu masih teringat padanya.
11:
Kamu berjalan dengan perlahan sekali bila bersama dengannya. 
10:
Kamu rasa serba tak kena bila berjauhan dengannya. 
9:
Kamu akan tersenyum bila kamu mendengar suaranya. 
8:
Bila kamu memandangnya, kamu tidak nampak orang lain di sekeliling. Kamu hanya nampak dia... 
6:
Dia adalah segalanya yang kamu ingin fikirkan. 
5:
Kamu perasan kamu sentisa senyum apabila kamu memandangnya. 
4:
Kamu akan melakukan apa sahaja untuk membolehkan kamu berjumpa dengannya. 
3:
Semasa kamu sedang membaca ini, dalam fikiran kamu terbayang wajah dia sahaja. 
2:
Kamu begitu asyik memikirkan tentang dirinya sehingga kamu tidak perasan bahawa nombor tujuh hilang/tiada. 
1:
Kamu akan balik ke atas untuk memastikan adalah betul tiada no 7 dan kamu akan tergelak sendiri.

BUATLAH HAJAT KAMU SEKARANG. KAMU TAU APA YANG KAMU PALING INGINKAN.....
 I wish....i wish with all my might........
Biler sang hati berbicara....Wakakakakakakakakaka=)
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Oklah....Naddy signing out......
Btw....FB produce me a name.Honey Tart.Siaper2 berminat ngan kueh tart?I got truck lots of it. 

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

♥Bini popeye kena.....♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=) 

Haiyyo....1st day of school since the holiday and it just sucks.....Can't sleep yesterday night....Golek saner sini at last tertidor jugak....And want to know who makes me sleep.....?My bantal pelok....Call me weird...but somehow it will always manages to put me to sleep.......

And i miss my cuzzie.....I miss talking   "stuff" with her...it had been ions....and the last thing that i can remember talking with her is " biler kiter dah kahwen kiter berbual pasal aper ehk agak nyer..." dah smiling2 aku sendiri.......LoL.....

And yesterday met up with bestie to return the dvd's and lend her my korean dvd entitled "my girl"....

Grab some ice cream and head to civic....Introduce her to some good books before suddenly kena interviewed by this 2 sweet person.......Feeling2 aku jap......Hehe......

Been wanting to cut my hair since dah new year kan....new year everything nak new.....new haircut lah...new clothes lah...new boyfriend lah....hahaha=p

But...mama disagree with me wanting to cut my hair....padahal rambut aku......And this is what she says "nanti kau macam bini popeye!!!" yerlah tu...mentang2 aku kuruskan....tkper....going to make myself berisi this year......

And nadia....smelly fish sak skali kena....dh adr pet names per.....Dier dah suker kau tu nampak nyer......*wink wink*

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“I’m not sure how I feel about this… one of the reasons I was prepared to do this was to stop feeling like that and has anything changed? I’m at war with myself and I just don’t know what to do about it…” -LJB

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Oklah....Naddy signing out......

Sorrylah klau  this post boring ehk......

Annyeong!!!!!

♥

 

♥i'm a superwomen,though i might cry sometimes...hee....=)♥

AnnyeongHaseyo!!!!=) 

Fulamak.....yesterday was great....the karaok,eating and all.....Thanks girls for the day!!!Gerek per.....=)

Hope to do it more often.....and this time....with sleepover as an add-on......

So...yesterday was great....But today was such a downturn.....Tak suker sgt2....

Starting with a deep cut on my thigh....Woke up crying and limping like a baby showing to mama the cut that i have.....And now mama can't stop teasing me....Haiyo.....Bagos per.....

Then later in the afternoon...i was reading this book....and out of nowhere i was crying missing him.......

To make matter's worst the radio was doing no help either.....Playing emo song......Dah depressed makin depressed aku.......End up reading those old still undeleted msgs which make my sis sick of it with an attempt to make the situation better but it ends up with me calling bestie crying saying that i miss him more and with her saying that i should msg him  with me disagreeing to it......But it was a relief after letting it all out........

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I miss him badly but even if i tell i were to tell him that i miss him...would it even change anything?

So i miss him....but i need to get a move on.....there's still many fishes swimming2 in the sea kan ili....your favourite qoute of all time.....

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Enough of those emo stuff...below are some of the pictures of yesterday happier moments with my sayangs.....

♥i'm a superwomen,though i might cry sometimes.....♥

Annyeong!!!!!

♥