~~When you sleep with a broken heart. Waking up is the hardest part...~~

Finally....weekends is around the corner....and there is a few more hours left before the clock strucks midnight.....
What a week it have been...Full of ups and downs..and some surprises along the way....Time flies by so quickly.....2 more weeks and the 5 weeks holiday will approach...gone are the days when we longed for it to come....
Semester 1 is coming to an end...and i can't believe that semester 2 is fast approaching...Can't believe that it have been almost 5 months since we first started school.....
Am so not looking forward to semester 2 as it means that there will be a change of class....I love my classmates...and i don't want to part with them.....
Skipping the topic.....
School for today have been good.....Finally my msn is working....but there is one little problem.....
And that is...everytime i switch on the laptop,msn must be removed and be downloaded again.....What a chore...haaiisshh.....And the TB nurse called,asking to attend an appointment which i had skip on the 27/July....will be going on wednesday with Cheryl....will miss first meeting.....Hoping the result on both of us will turn out negative......
Can't wait for 9 august....not only because it is national day and the next day there will be a holiday,but also will be going bbq-ing......As my cousins are celebrating their advanced birthday party on that day......
Might be going to bestie's house tomorrow to lend her princess hours dvd.....been thinking of going to woodlands garden to watch the sunset at 6.20pm......hmmmm......
Cooking breakfast for the family tomorrow if my mum permits to use her kitchen.....
Enough of chit-chatting....my post ends here.....:) Reflection journal...here i come....sshhheesshhh....

~~In the book of life, the answers aren't in the back.(Charlie Brown)~~

~~When i thought that i can move on...i am actually lying to myself....~~

It hurts and its killing me more than i can ever imagine...So so painful sometimes i feel like jumping down and end the story......
I can't continue my life like this...My heart feels heavy everytime i woke up....and everytime before i sleep,i wish that this pain would go away....But that wish never came true....And i still woke up with a heavy heart......
I never thought that it would hurt me this much....I don't know why....Mama says NEVER cry for a guy...cause it is all a waste...."buang air mata kakak jek..." that's the exact sentence....
Whenever i am alone...I cannot stop thinking...even if i kept myself busy HE will still be in the back of my mind no matter how much i try to ignore and deny it....
Tell me how am i supposed to move on if this is what i feel everyday...I can go crazy....Cause my heart is controlling my mind...and my mind just seems to follow whatever my heart says.....
I cannot see myself smiling happily in the future if i am going to continue going on like this......
I guess it is easier said than done.
But i am going to try nevertheless....
I'm going to try even if it is going to kill me or even if i have to cry a sea of tears just to make this pain go away....and i never felt like this before....

Sleepness night accompany me...and i am having headaches because of it.....

One thing that i know is....My love is NOT a lie......that....i can confirm you....

~~Love is just another word that people use for granted without fully understanding or appreciating the meaning behind it all......~~

Pesanan Buat Kekasih-Spring

Lyrics:
Sewaktu kau melangkah
Meninggalkan diriku
Sebaknya rasa di dalam dadaku
Menahan titis air mata

( 1 )
Ingin aku berpesan
Kepadamu kekasih
Sekiranya engkau merinduiku
Hubungilah aku di sini

( korus )
Jika ada kesilapanku
Maafkanlah diriku oh sayang
Dan izinkan aku bertanya
Mengapa kau berubah hati

Kiranya kau ada penggantiku
Tetapi hidupmu tak bahagia
Relaku memaafkanmu
Dan menerimamu sayang

Walaupun hatiku kau lukai
Namunku masih menyayangi
Kerana sehingga waktu ini
Cintaku masih untukmu

Oh sayang di mana kau berada
Janganlah kau lupakan aku
Ingatlah aku walau sesaat
Seorang insan yang terluka

Before we experience success,we need to experience failure first...
Every ending is the start of a new beginning....

~~Someone said to me..."I love you!"I sneezed...I replied, "Sorry, but I'm allergic to lies."~~

At home.Having headaches and chills.And i feel like throwing up.Lack of sleep is the reason behind all this.
I just don't feel secure anymore.I just don't.
My perspective in the four letter word just change in an instance.
I feel like i am being stab in the back.
And i hate crying.I feel like a stupid dimbo.Maybe that is what i am.What am i thinking of???
I think i know the answer without needing to say anything.....
And i make a mistake by not following mama's advice....
Mama and azura is my doctor love.....thanks for everything....
Sometimes people just don't know how to appreciate others......That is all i got to say....
Stepping down now....but it doesn't mean that i lost in this game called love......
Like mama says....still "anak abu"...."Jangan sedih sedih...biarlah dorang" thanks mama for the humour... :')
All you got to do is search for the answer from deep within....Its your own decision...The decision that is made may not be always right....It might kill you..Like a phrase in malay.."senjata makan tuan"..so good luck.....don't hurt yourself.....
One thing i know is that....The decision that i am making now is correct with the help of my loved ones...they know what is best for me...And they will never want to see me hurt....

This love may turn out to be just a lie.....
Say what you want to say.....I just don't want to hurt myself anymore...
I learnt a lot.....
It is part of a growing process....One day you will realise the mistakes that you had done....
Hope that i am not part of your burden anymore......

Starting my life anew no matter how painful it may be.......

"Love is blind..."

my bleeding lips.....too dry maybe....must apply lip balm.....
plus...my half dead face.....=p

and...i just feel like something is going to happen....cause my heart beat is beating way too fast....am worried sick....='(

~~"There are only a few people in this world who are born to love you seriously... You are lucky if one of that few is in love with you."~~

~~It hurts to fall in love with a friend.You keep on hiding your feelings, avoiding it as much as you can until you cry your heart out.All out of fear of losing a friend and a love you never had.~~

Programmingprogrammingprogrammingprogrammingprogrammingprogramming.........
Programming=Headache=Boring=Die
Dying of programming that causes headache which will later make me bored and feel like giving up.....Need someone....a hero of some kind and help save my day......
Programming is like some kind of module which murder people with their codes.....
Totally hate it...never will i like it...or enjoy it for the rest of my life.....It will be the death of me....
Harry potter....for the second time...It is never boring...Enjoy it....Hehes...=)Understand more by watching it for the second time...Curse you professor snape and draco......I hate you both.....
Slept the earliest yesterday.....before 11 i was already on lala land......Mama said i was already super weak and i look like one dead zombie......with my half open eyes and dragging feet...........
I am happy with myself....it have been almost one week since i ate rice everyday.......an achievement which i still can't believe.....haha:p
I will and i will try to love rice.......
Been craving to go to east coast and pasir ris beach.....envy my lil' bro and sister who have been cycling inside the house non-stop...morning to day...day to night.....i want to go cycle this saturday!!!!!!=p

~~True love never surrenders.It might get tired, but a little rest is enough to love again even better because true love would never complain.It would always find a way to understand pain.~~

my formal attire day on the 27/7/09....for more photos and video check my facebook...=)

Behind my smiles are my kept tears.
Behind my jokes are my hidden problems.

That phrase sums it all....:')

~~Love is the way I feel when I can't imagine my life without you....(Kenneth)~~

This few days have been waking up with a sore throat...Sabrina thought i am crying again and i can feel her voice panicking....What if i'm lying and indeed i am crying...hmm....Need to pop sore throat pills soon...plus i am filling chills every now and then..These sore throats is going to cause cough soon....
I think from now on i am going to write in korean,spanish,portugese and russian....or even japanese..hehes...
go figure what the word below means...
in korean:
당신을 많이 사랑해요
당신을 많이 사랑해요 아파요 및
in italian:
Ti amo molto fino a nuoce
dove sono le sue parole?
ora che lasciare che? chi è piangere ora... mi dicono....
chi è in esecuzione da chi..... che soffre come inferno... non fuggono... ho bisogno di lei....
non importa mio quali caro... sempre sarò vi per voi... in attesa... accetterò è in condizioni di qualunque cosa, anche quando tutti si odia...... sarà sempre prego per voi... prendere cura amore mio....
auguro buona fortuna in qualunque do. si.. e può Dio proteggerti sempre... una vita felice con la ragazza è possibile amare....
if you figure it out..tag me...:)

and life is as per normal...the way like it used to be....nothing interesting...but i am glad to have my love ones surrounding me....i have to move on....and pretend that it never happens...though it will always be a part of the happy memories that i once use to have...i need to let you go now even if i don't want too.....goodbye...?????having second thoughts...could i?

~~only time will help me to heal....forget the tears that i cry,just remember my smile my love...:')~~

I know it...And i can feeeeeel it...How...? hmmmm....I heard it 'somewhere' before but i just can't recall WHO says it.....Expected it already....Tak tau takper.....Anda akan tau...That's all folks!!!:p
"Siapa makan cili dier akan terasa pedas....." :)

Bored....~~Yawning~~
Nothing good on the radio.....
Suddenly think of what if i die tomorrow....?
Random...i know...bored..nothing better to think of......
Missing those late night calls..and webcaming session.....
Just remember...:
TB appoinment...on 27 July..next monday....
27 July formal attire....
27 July formal attire...TB appointment...How?
29/30 July TB result....

*Love songs are making me depressed but i just can't stop from playing it...Class 95..love songs with yazzz....Weekdays...9-2am....love songs lovers...come join...i'm B.O.R.E.D...might be dying of boredom soon...hehs:p*

~~Kay...I'm done talking.....~~
ByeBye my lovelings.....Tc...and don't do naughty things O.K...set...
Love you all with all my heart and soul.....:)

~~Love is strong yet delicate.It can be broken.To truly love is to understand this.To be in love is to respect this.(Stephen Packer)~~

1st July....1st July.... the most memorable date of all.....The first time...
Slept after i could no longer stand the sleepiness as my eyelids are getting way too heavy that time....
I dream of ehem2 again...have been almost 1 week plus...and still....that's why its painful even for me to sleep....there's no difference in me being awake or asleep....
Yesterday i have the sweetest dream..and only my best buddy know about it...and she scolded me.. saying that i am thinking way too much...its true...but i cannot stop myself from doing so....god make me this way..that is all i have to say....hehs:p
And during the afternoon nap...that person says the words that i want to hear badly in reality...Halfway through,am being disturbed by my sis shouting...as per normal....and i wonder..would i ever hear it again...this time in reality...i guess i just have to keep on dreaming....:')
And some company called me today to ask about attending an orientation tomorrow....but there will be another one held on tuesday..hmmm...its about gaining working experience...and the pay is quite good...might be considering if the work is manageable...pick up point at Eunos mrt station as the compay is somewhere around there....
Sunday orientation:
2.30pm...
Tuesday orientation:
6.30pm....
Duration:1 1/2 hour....
Left alone again at home with sis...parents and small siblings is attending a wedding nearby.....
And i desperately want to watch Harry Potter again....Whoever says that it is boring,is lying...

~~Friends will guide you when you are in the dark..and will always be holding your hand guiding you,never leaving you alone....~~

Overdue pictures...some....which i just can't bear to look at....

*don't ever run away and disappear.....*

~~And i will take you in my arms..And hold you right where you belong.'Till the day my life is through..This I Promise You... (This I Promise you-NSync)~~

Slept early yesterday with the radio on....I haven't even change my clothes or even shower...Was lying on the floor face down with coco....the floor became my bed for a while....
Mum woke me up for subuh prayers....didn't continue to sleep like usual..eat breakfast and went to grab my laptop.....the usual routine....
Sis was awake and she share with me the poem that she wrote:
~~Mr Night sleeps beneath the sky...
Waiting for dawn to dissolve in time....
He recites his secrets close to his heart...
Which he will soon confide to the lonely souls....~~

Kak ita called yesterday asking me if i want to attend an event at Geylang with her tomorrow and help out kak shidah to sell something....tickets maybe...Some artist from indonesia is coming down tomorrow and i desperately want to go....haiishh..need to pass through mama first...that is the most crucial thing...
Seriously....i'm bored....need to slap my face for a few times before being able to keep my eyes open.....Mama have gone to geylang..Left me and sis alone....
I think i'm talking crap...need somebody to call me to keep me awake......
And i saw someone yesterday....smiling all the way to class before my heart starts to cry bitterly....zura's not in school...so i have no one to share my problem with....haaaiissh...get well soon my dear dear zura....:')

*and i laugh...but i'm crying...*

~~A friend is a person who knows what you are saying,even if you're not talking...(Sarah Bennett)

~~Beauty lies and come from within....~~

Today's lesson is cognitive...MCDONALDS!!!!:)
Watching A Walk To Remember....Ouh....How lucky is the girl to have such a guy who loves her more than anything else....A lot of lessons to be learnt from the movie.....I salute the guy who is willing to let go of everything in the past and change to a new whole human being,ignoring what other people say about him even though he might lose his friends in the process.....
I can't watch no more of it....its like the 3rd time i'm watching it but everytime i watch it again, its like i'm seeing something new...and i will start crying.....
especially this part:
~~i'm sorry... she never got her miracle,she did..it was you....~~
landon:are you scared?
jamie:to death..laughing....
landon:its not funny...
jamie:i'm scared of not being with you...
landon:ohh baby that will never happen....
this is the best part:
>>landon:jamie.....i love you....now will be the time to say something...
jamie:i told you not to fall in love with me....
>>jamie:you plan this....
landon:ohh i hope for it....
jamie:are u trying to seduce me...
landon:why?are you seducable..
jamie:*shaking her head...smiling*
landon:thats what i thought...here you'll go..a second blanket...one for you and one for me.....
jamie:thank you....:)
>>landon:mum..its different...with her ok....
landon saying to his mum:jamie has faith in me,you know she makes be wanna be different....

enough for today's post....bye......
Love you much.....

~~Where hope grows, miracles blossom.
- Elna Rae~~

~~My spoiled little precious SAYANG....~~
and the chocolate ice-cream to sweeten my day which is just so bitter this few days.....

~~This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace....~~

Met my sayang yesterday.....it just makes my day.....it is just so spoiled....decided to called it sayang as it purrs everytime i called it by sayang....very adorable lah he/she.....it like the touch of my hand and sayang seems to know my problems cause sayang will try to make me smile and laugh....Furthermore sayang will purrs fierecely to other cats who came near me.....such a spoiled cat...but i love sayang....:) Sayang is mine officially as of today :p.....

Love songs and coco have been my faithful companion throughout my long lonely night everyday.....

Little brother have been walking around the house yesterday with his pink spiderman bag and little sister shrieking is making me insane....stop it already...its making me more depressed....

Plus little sis just broke my FAVOURITE pair of heart necklace.....Cried like one pathetic girl....sobbing terribly until my head hurts and my eyes sore and red....I don't know if i cry more because of the necklace or because of other issues.....as i cry for way too long and my teddy bear,coco,is the only one who care to accompany me without fail......

And my heart is sore...so so sore...it is overbeating and is overwork.......Why do you seem to know that my smile is a fake one...i try to smile a genuine smile but its the only smile that i managed to potray.....And why my lips tremble?Cause i'm refraining myself from crying in front of you....and my hands just can't seem to let go your hand..and my legs just don't want to walk away whenever you are around.....my lips are dry.....super dry...... :'(

Am bloghopping.....so yeah......

My heart is so use to getting hurt and bruise till sometimes it feels so empty...and emotionless.....

Don't want to make you stress up,but i'm writing what i feel here....i don't want to bottle it up no more...cause it will only make my heart suffers more....

like i say...you'll always be my baby....:')

~~You came into my dreams everyday without my permission...am not faking it....~~

~~me and aishah~~

~~nothing better to do~~

~~you'll always be my baby....:')~~

Should i let go of everything and move on...Cause i don't want too....

Been thinking about what if.....

What if i have not meet you....

What if i have not love you.....

What if i don't want to move on....

What if i decide to move on....

What if i'm tired of everything.....

What if i don't love you anymore....

What if you get sick of me....

What if you get bored and tired of hearing me sulking.....

What if all the thing that have happen is just a bad dream......

What if......

What my life would be right now if i have not meet you.....

One thing i know for sure is that i never regret loving you...never will.....

And i never regret knowing you....

Will you help me move on if i say i want to move on......?

Cause i am scared of going through everything alone right now.....

and i need your hug more than ever......

Will i ever see a bright pathway for me in the future with you in my memories......?

i guess,only time will tell......cause you are the reason for the smile on my face....

-i will always be accepting you with an open heart and a smile on my face no matter what happens and in whatever conditions.....~~

*seeing your picture make me smile even though it hurts so much*

“Love is when two people who care for each other get confused”

~~“My knees start to shake, when you're in sight, my mind's filled with wonder, my heart with fright. When will this feeling stop? When did it start? How can I listen to my mind, without breaking my heart? I'm so confused, what can I do? I can't think of”~~
http://thinkexist.com/quotes/with/keyword/confused/

Woke up with sudden heaviness in the chest....It's like somebody have shoot me straight in the heart......When will this feeling ever stop...and its raining...And am controling and refraining myself from *** ing in school.....
I thought i saw a sunlight this morning..and i think i am imagining things.....how can there be a sunlight when outside its pouring....
Woke up early around 0640am and pray subuh prayers which make me feel a little bit under control.....
I think i should make an effort to stay strong rather than just saying that i am strong and when i think i am strong...my self esteem plunge down.....

~~“Anyone can give up, it's the easiest thing in the world to do. But to hold it together when everyone else would understand if you fell apart, that's true strength.”~~
http://answers.yahoo.com/question/index?qid=20080206173131AAej8dg

~~Who am i to judge a person love,only god can judge it~~

My heart feels empty but heavy...And my eyes are dry...too dry.....but my mind seems to be working overtime.....how?
And mama will be asking about him whenever i reach home....She loves him like her child and she treats him like her child...i can see it...and feel it.....its a women instinct....
What is infatuation and what is love?
That is all i want to know....
Seriously...those little details that people don't notice and will take it for granted is the one that is actually the most precious thing of all.....
Again..i'm the only girl in the team....2 of my team members didn't come for school....so...fun right....hmmpphhh.....Zura never come to school today because she have a fever,cough and flu....The class is just different without her...she's my ultimate everything in school....besides..that special syg of mine....
And i am worried...worried about something.....just worried....just be careful....and i will guard that somebody with my life if i had too.....
Again...i will end this post with the phrase/sentence:who am i judge to a person's love.....

In the library facebooking with zura and her wonderful special someone....Am so happy for you zura....:) may it be long lasting hingga ke syurga...~~AMIIN~~ :)
Receive a call from an unregistered number.....Call back the number and it turn out that it is my dear dear dear sayang.....Why do you say like that?Are you okay?Where are you?What are you going to do?Please i beg of you.....take care....don't make me worried like this...Cause i am shivering right now not because it is cold...but because of you.....Please call me back and inform that everything's ok....My mind is wrecking havoc right now....I will always pray for you without you asking.....Love you so so much....and again i beg of you.....take care......:'(
*Ya ALLAH tolong lindungilah orang yang aku sayangi dan cintai ini....dia adalah jiwaku....Jangan sakiti dia ya Allah...aku mohon....:'( *

~~There's two to wash,
Two to dry
Two who argue
And two who cry.
There's two to kiss
Two to hug
And best of all
Two to Love!
http://www.verses4cards.co.uk/twins-poems.html~~

Congratulation to my auntie in Johor who just gave birth yesterday night to twins...A girl and a boy...aawwww.....You bring tears to my mum's eyes...Hope everything's alright and well.....The whole family will always pray for you three...Hope you three are healthy and well though there are some complications....May Allah protect you three and may you are blessed with happiness throughout your life....from ur kakak sedare and family....:')
Thanks for making me happy, twins though i haven't visit you yet.....You bring light to my life for the time being....can't wait to see and hold you......And hope you grow up to be a handsome and pretty people....
Love you.....<3<3<3<3

-i smile kan.....my 'genuine' smile....which i managed.....


Cute tak the above gambar....just cannot seem to concentrate in class.....Mind was elsewhere....Maybe i left it at the BEACH.....Seeing the photos at this website just make me want to laugh and cry.....Now did i realise that i was still very the weak.....weak sgt2....

SABRINA,AISHAH!!!!!SOS!!!!Its going to rain soon....not outside but inside.....mama...kakak tak boleh tahan lagi mama......hmmmm.......

But i know...I am strong...Strong....like.....THE ROCK!!!! haha:phandsome ah dier....:)
For today's class...i'm the only girl in the team.....How?Syiok right....Roses among the thorns.....mcm betol gitu......

I looked away
then I look back at you,
You try to say
the things that you can't undo,
If I had my way
I'd never get over you,
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.
Back under the stars,
Back into your arms.

And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

Wanna know who you are,
Wanna know where to start,
I wanna know what this means.

Wanna know how you feel,
Wanna know what is real.
I wanna know everything... Everything.

I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it.
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you. I don't wanna talk about it And I don't want a conversation I just wanna cry in front of you. and I don't wanna talk about it 'Cause I'm in love with you. I'm in love with you, 'Cause I'm in love with you. I'm in love with you, I'm in love with you...

*nadhirah dah start emo and dah start bual merepek...dier dah start saket jiwa...haha:p mana doktor cinta?smile*

~~Being a strong girl....~~

It hurts...But i am going to keep on smiling....Being strong....
I'm grateful for your words of encouragement mama.....I treasure those words you gave me......
And please don't keep the problem all to yourself.....Stay strong....And smile.....dear friend..... :) love you......

Will be going to woodlands garden tomorrow.....
Care to accompany me....?

~~And i am scared to close my eyes....with much fear cause yesterday i dream of you....~~

And that smile sticks in my mind

~~Friends is what we need in time of sorrows....~~

The cloud is pouring rain today...the same as tears pouring my heart....Suddenly the sunset seems to disappear and it seems like everything is meaningless...i know this sadness will go away one day but all i want to know is....WHEN?
Have a sleepover at bestie house for the night...i'm just so tired...so so tired....hug them countless times and god knows how many times...seeing them just make me feel so relieved....
Woke up with my head spinning...and my body felt cold suddenly...but bestie kept me busy by making breakfast together......after breakfast she plays the piano....and i felt tears pouring down....major breakdown after that and bestie hugs me with all the love she got and she wipe away my tears countless times for the day since yesterday.....assuring me that everything will be better...and that make me cried even more....she and aishah,like my mum just knows what to say....they are like the most precious treasures that i ever had....
My eyes hurt and head is throbbing in pain....hmmm.....
Came home and mama says this...: "kakak....jodoh semua ALLAH dah tentukan...janganlah terok sangat macam gini....agak nyer doa mama termakbul kakak....mama selalu doa moga2 kakak ditemukan dengan orang yang baik....bukan haziq tak baik....tapi maybe ader orang lagi baik untuk kakak......" i was drinking water when she says this....and i straight away went into the room with tears in my eyes.....haaaiisshh..i don't know....life's weird....
Note to myself:
I'm strong kan?Strong sangat2....No grudges....
Can i tipu myself?Tak boleh....
Can i move on?Tak tau....
Broken hearted again?Yup....
End of story?Entah...
Best friend kan?A'ah......
Kau betol ke tak ni nadhirah?Tak tau...dah tak betol agak nyer dier ni....
Terok sangat ah kau....tampar karang...nak?Biarlah...memang aku terok....Tampar ah...aku tak kisah....Blueekk....:p
Dah habis cakap?Dah....Eh.....jap2...ntah ehk....byebye... :')
By the way...luper...kau maafkan dier kan...?takder benci2 kan...?He is forgiven....Takder benci2....Sumpah...Demi Allah...:)I love him..blk samer2 nak?kay...dah habes cakap dah....byebye....take care dears....:')

Seriously...i'm dizzy...and i feel like vomitting....Bed....here i come...Gedebush.....1,2,3,4 hi-5!!!!!!!:')

*dear ALLAH....this little girl heart have been broken again...fix it as soon as possible...sebab sakit sangat2....and i know you will always be here with me showing your love everywhere when i am in total and complete darkness....*

~~smile girl smile even if it's hard and painful...everything is going to be ok...Don't cry ok...just smile:')........~~

*that smile on that particular friday morning will always stick in my mind...sorry if i say i will be supportive but in the end i sort of betray those words...cause i thought it will be easy......and my heart will be always be wide open....hope you keep that something that i gave you....
http://sketches-oflife.blogspot.com/2009/07/my-heart-to-you-is-given-oh-do-give.html
and my pointer is being naughty....Betol punyer acer....hmmmpphhh.....:'(*

~~Everytime you need somebody...i will always be a phone call and a sms away....~~

You just make my day and i hope i did yours too.....My heart skips a beat when i see your smiling face and it just make me feel so relieved....And today my day just seems brighter than any other day.....Hope we can bump into each other more often....Feel like hugging you when i saw you.....
Don't worry about about the outing today....there will always be tomorrow...just promise me you will enjoy yourself today....Everything happens for a reason and just look at the positive side of things...
And about yesterday just tell me if you have anything bugging you cause i don't want you to go through it alone....Cause if it hurts you,it will hurt me too...Just speak your mind out if you need too....*hugs and kisses* :)

~~And i love you everytime i see you....indeed you're different like no other in a good way...~~

~~You know you are in love when you see the world in her eyes, and her eyes everywhere in the world. - David Levesque -~~

In the library with my classmates after skipping programming lesson for today...I feel so bad, but then i have a valid reason for it..I mean...its better to skip than to do nothing in class besides chatting and surfing the net...If only i have a clue of what the facilitator is talking and teaching every Wednesday,would i attend the class and not skipping it halfway through the day...Also,today we saw a lot of RP students and some familiar faces...so we're not the only one....

Have a shock of my life after discovering that everything in my laptop have change...from the colour that i have painfully personalize into pink all gone....and all the things that have been downloaded missing...like WTF!!!

By the way,watch the sunset at the garden...Didn't notice it at first but that special someone saw it and inform me...u don't know how happy i am at that point of time...smiling all the way,snapping photos of the sun and crying out SUNSET!!!SUNSET!!SUNSET!!!every few seconds like one retarded person who never saw a sunset before...Will be uploading the sunset photos later at night....2 more days to go till harry potter!!!!:)

~~Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.
- Stephen Packer -~~

♥Hey mr
♥You are my sweetheart....

~~My heart to you is given: Oh, do give yours to me; We'll lock them up together, And throw away the key. --Frederick Saunders~~

Oh boy...Oh boy....That's what i am saying everyday...every hour,every minute,every seconds...It's ticking on my mind and its sticking on my brain even in my sleep.It can't stop bugging me...Its never going to go away any time soon...Oh boy... I know this is going to happen....Haaisshhh......
There's this fear inside of me and i think i am listening to too many love songs.....I'm scared of loving somebody and get my heart broken again....But then....somehow he make me smile all day long even though i am not in the mood to smile....SSShhhsshh....
Skipping that...in school now with my sis hoodie over me...bloody cold...and my legs are shivering...just discover that the skirt i'm wearing is torn....ouuhh....hmm.....what a day.....
My latest addiction:Lucky and You and I.....
Can't wait to watch harry potter with that someone....
and i had a bad dream......

~~Hundreds of pages, pages, pages forwards More words then I had ever heard and I feel so alive~~

~~It is the passion that is in a kiss that gives to it its sweetness; it is the affection in a kiss that sanctifies it. --Christian Nevell Bovee~~

.addictive.:)

~~and the feelings develop over time....~~

~~What Is Romance? Romance is a state of mind. Romance is an attitude. Romance is about the little things- small loving gestures, hugs, saying "I love you" (and meaning it), and sincere compliments. --Gregory Godek (1001 Ways To Be Romantic)~~

Feel like it have been ages since i update this blog....
In class and i am feeling super sleepy...my eyes are droopy and my brain is just not working....
The class are super noisy....playing CS as usual...its good that they are noisy...its making me awake....
Mum forgotten to give me pocket money for school...lucky i have $2 in my purse...am lazy to fork out money from the atm machine...been a lazy couch potato this few days...can't wait for weekends...those will be the days that i will be paying back my sleep...
Today is MT 'O' level oral..the best of luck to my dearest sabrina.....:)
Am wondering when will i be watching be the sunset....hmmm...missing those moments....sshhssshh...
Have a question to ask...can dreams be trusted?cause those dreams are disturbing me...and i hate it...
Can't stop remembering about yesterday incident at sis bedroom...am super malu...and i feel like slapping myself......
Kay.I'm done...I'm spouting nonsense...

*Thank for the the great day yesterday.....:)*

~~We loved with a love that was more than love. --Edgar Allan Poe~~

masih ada rindu,rafeah buang

~~Inside the heart of each and every one of us there is a longing to be understood by someone who really cares. When a person is understood, he or she can put up with almost anything in the world. --Rev Ed Hird~~

Woke up with a bad headache.....my throat hurts...my eyes feels hot...and my nose is feeling itchy...Feeling scared....mum asked to take temperature....lucky it was 36.7........And my siblings are running away from me....Mum too....but she occasionally went inside my room to make sure that i am okay.....am asked to wear a mask...and so i wore it....and it makes me fog up my spectacle glass....that somebody says that i look like a ninja....haha:p
I quarantine myself inside my room.....Am now listening to radio.....class 95 have nothing interesting so am tuning in to warna....haiyoo....since yesterday,they have been playing rock classic....and it makes me sentimental....haaaaiiissshhh.......
today is 5 of July...and it marks what would have been our 2 months together...but...what have happened..HAVE happened....mum advised me to let go of the past...its not worth loving somebody who might not love you back.....so now i am holding to the qoute: time will heal all wounds......am always reminded that its his lost....not mine....hmmm.......
Have a great night yesterday.....slept at 3.32am....the webcaming session have been super great....and it left me smiling throughout my sleep...till now in fact...hehes....:) all i got to say is thanks for being there when i'm at my lowest and sorry for having to cope with my crazy attitude and my unfinished sentences which i left hanging if you know what i mean...... :)
Am craving to go to the da vinci the genius exhibition at science centre which cost 15 bucks...i want to go there badly to see monalisa....am planning to go with my sis.....hope will be able to go there...i want to know why they adore monalisa so much.....
Kay.I'm done.Take care of yourself people.Its the flu season.....And don't forget...wear a mask!!!!go to see the doctor if you are not feeling well...quarantine yourself if you feel there's a need too.....

~~Two hearts, two minds, in time did find one love, one aim two paths the same. Hold fast...and love will last. --Matt Buttram~~