my mum had been treating me like a maid by asking me to wash the dishes all the time..she is taking advantage of me and i would like to run from my home which is now like a hell to me with i trap in helplessly with no where to go...that bloody biatch had been making my temperature rising...i feel like bursting already....somebody please help me..i am in need of desperate help and i want to get away from my mom as far as possible....the faster the better for the meantime as my relationship with her this few days had not been good...she is making my life worse right now....my cuzin is going through the same fate as me...i pity US!!!i want to go to the gym but she ignores me and says i don't need to and my sis say i am too thin to go for exercise...like DUHH!!!!!excuse me...you don't have to be fat in order to go to the gym...is there such a rule that stated ONLY FAT PEOPLE CAN GO THE GYM???hmmm....let me think...i guess NOT??YOU ARE NOT THE BOSS OF ME SO YOU BETTER KEEP YOUR MOUTH SHUT!!for your information people go to the gym to keep their body healthy regardless of what body size so as not to do it excessively....and here comes the good part...my mom think that i want to go the gym only because i want to follow my cuzens footsteps....URRGH!!!HOW WORSE COULD IT BE!!I CAN'T STAND IT ANYMORE!!!I'M SICK OF YOUR RULES!AND FOR YOUR INFROMATION I AM ALREADY 16 NOT 6!!!WHEN YOU CAN ORDER PEOPLE AROUND....
this morning my dad and my mom accompany my sis to bukit panjang polyclinic and her wound is somewhat better..her wound had been treated but she need constant treatment...she is also diagnosed with hand,foot and mouth disease probably because she need to go for further check-up this monday...i thought only kids get that disease and that thought is bothering me....my mom had been spoiling my sis by doing things for her while i had to do the FUCKING housework....
aniwae.i'm suppose to return magazine on 27/12 but i've been lazy to go out....i am in need of absolute peace which i gladly CAN'T!!I want to repeat once again what a bad month december is to me except for the trip to village....just can't wait for '08 to come....hoping for a good year....(hopefully)i will give more info on what i crave for and hoping to fulfill in the next post....
Saturday 29 December 2007
totally in frustration
i am so mad right now i feel like i am going to need to kick someone ass and smack his head right off...this is how mad i am right now...i'm in no mood to joke watsoever and i am going berseck!!!ohkaes straight to the point...my sis SUCKS BIG TIME!!!!!oh what a relief after saying that.....(sigh)i feel like shouting,screaming and do any other unimaginable stuff right now...oh what does she think she is..i noe you are sick but you don't have to order people around making things worse and making others crazy....now i feel like i am not going to help you whatsoever again...OH NO YOU DON'T!!!!don't even think about it young lady....i know you are sick but i am growing tired out of this...with i doing all your chores...i'm tired...you know what does that mean or you need me to help you define that word?i guess you don't right??don't expect me to buy your books for you as i am not your maid...ask someone else to do it for you...i am not..i repeat not in a G.O.O.D M.O.O.D....all thanks to YOU!!!YEAH YOU!!!AND THAT YOUR IRRITATING CUZIN OF YOURS NOT MINE(as i proclaim,though i am ashamed to admit that she is my cuzin) WHO CAN'T STOP BUGGING YOU AND YOU KNOW WHAT!!SHE SUCKS BIG TIME TOO!!IN FACT SHE SUCKS MORE THAN YOU!!!!YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY?IT IS BECAUSE YOU SPOIL THAT BLOODY ASS TOO MUCH!!!!GET IT!!!!!AND BECAUSE OF HER, YOUR LEG HAS BECOME AS PRESENT...and mum doesn't stop her L.A.M.E joke...by taking pictures of your burnt wound and after that saying that it is other pic and when i see it,it is your wound and i can't seem to notice that coming and i always fall to her L.A.M.E joke....i am growing tired of that....
oh what a relief....i feel good...i feel so good right now and there is no words which can describe it...i know i may seem bad but you must think of others to...
oh what a relief....i feel good...i feel so good right now and there is no words which can describe it...i know i may seem bad but you must think of others to...
Friday 28 December 2007
december
my life has been dull this few days all because of my sis leg...i had been trapped in my house like foreva...only just now i went out for job hunting with my cousins with no luck at all since it is christmas...will wait till cny come then we will go job hunting again together......
its such a bore stuck at home with no where to go...this week is like the most fucking days of my life cause my mum don't have the heart to leave my sis alone whose thigh had been accidentally burnt when she go off the wrong side of the motorcylce few days ago at our village....
she had been rather annoying and irritating...i feel sorry for my mom,my small sis,my small bro and myself cause we all had to be a maid to her by helping her and listening orders from her....i'm like so PISSED OFF!!!!i've been evil at her by teasing the way she walk and laughing by heads off though i know its bad...but i can't take it...pity her though....and she is always scolding me for my bad behaviour as i had been complaining non-stop about being stuck at home all the time and sulking and shouting and screaming my heads off....
my life these days had been nothing but watching what the tv programmes had to offer...helping my business enthusiastic mum rolling the newspaper to make basket and what-so-ever and listening to little siblings ANNOYING shouting,crying,screaming and non-stop fight thoroughout the days which makes my head go crazy.....
THIS!!!is like my most annoying and boring month of the year with the non-stop rain because of the moonsoon month...and we had to stay at home and can do nothing other than wishing it would stop....
can't wait for next year though...hoping to have a good year ahead....i have cut my hair and finally got the green light to dye my hair..my lil sis and i dye our hair already...i want to start afresh with a "new life,new beginning" vision....
its such a bore stuck at home with no where to go...this week is like the most fucking days of my life cause my mum don't have the heart to leave my sis alone whose thigh had been accidentally burnt when she go off the wrong side of the motorcylce few days ago at our village....
she had been rather annoying and irritating...i feel sorry for my mom,my small sis,my small bro and myself cause we all had to be a maid to her by helping her and listening orders from her....i'm like so PISSED OFF!!!!i've been evil at her by teasing the way she walk and laughing by heads off though i know its bad...but i can't take it...pity her though....and she is always scolding me for my bad behaviour as i had been complaining non-stop about being stuck at home all the time and sulking and shouting and screaming my heads off....
my life these days had been nothing but watching what the tv programmes had to offer...helping my business enthusiastic mum rolling the newspaper to make basket and what-so-ever and listening to little siblings ANNOYING shouting,crying,screaming and non-stop fight thoroughout the days which makes my head go crazy.....
THIS!!!is like my most annoying and boring month of the year with the non-stop rain because of the moonsoon month...and we had to stay at home and can do nothing other than wishing it would stop....
can't wait for next year though...hoping to have a good year ahead....i have cut my hair and finally got the green light to dye my hair..my lil sis and i dye our hair already...i want to start afresh with a "new life,new beginning" vision....
Friday 7 December 2007
mad
i donnoe why but i am noticing myself scolding others lately...my cousins had come over to my house for a few days and the house become like a childcare centre....there is noise all day long with all the shouting done by my beloved cousin....
things had not been so well this day...i am like a battleship ready to strike my mum anytime.i am giving her the silent treatment and yesterday she went berseck with and pick a fuss out of me over some issues.it is the same issues regarding food.it is up to me whether i want to eat or not.and she kept repeating the same HURTFUL sentences...and i was like standing there...piss off with her while she kept making noise to me...in my heart i am already cursing her stuff like "just shut up your $%#*& mouth and stop complaining....!!!!!!!i know i am not perfect...and if u hate me just let me die" sort of thing....i so HATE her sometimes....
she is also a complete...i repeat COMPLETE LIAR!!!she says she is gonna dye my hair for me...but guess what?as usual she don't dye my hair for me and completely ignore me when i ask her to do my hair for me....i'm so piss off and my patience is wearing thin and i can explode anytime...and guess what???just now...a few minutes ago she ask me to cook....how can she????urrrghh!!!!i feel like crying already....
my cousins which come over was alright...though my primary 2 cousin keep demanding me to do something for her....i am so pissed off with her sometimes but i love her...she is also can be quite stubborn too sometimes....but fara...shes like a total westerner kid.she,like me,don't like to eat rice.the day before she eat 5 plates off spagetthi noodle.but she manage to stay slim.and i forgot to mention tough.she is soooo like me...but she is an athele though liket o run about and is so hyperactive.
my other favourite cousin which is in australia will be coming home tom i guess.so miss them....can't wait to see what sourveneir they migh gave me and the scrapbook my cuz aisyah had promise...if she remember lah.
here are some photos of me and my cuz camwhoring inside my bedroom.for the past few days my sis had been sleeping with me and cuzin cause she is scared as my cuz keep shouting lantai 13!!!lantai 13!!!hahax:)miss them already..and my mum had promise to go to swimming pool together tom if it doesn't rain in woodlands swimming complex.
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