Updates and updates

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Assalamualaikum
So,writing(while swiping off the dust and spider webs)of this blog of mine as someone had mention this blog has been dead for a super long time.
Just updating some major events that had happen.
1.No longer schooling.
2.Working.Yes.And i couldn't be more happier and blessed.
Schooling.Shall not elaborate on why i am not schooling anymore.And some will know why.
Working.
My working life.As an Full-time Assistant Childcare teacher.At PPIS.A muslim organization which allows me to perform my duties as a muslim.All this thanks to Allah.Could't feel more bless and thankful.Everything happens for a reason,and i think this is the reason why i am schooling no more.
Imagine,my childhood career.Since 7 years old.Now 13 years later.
Will hold to my mum countless non-stop USEFUL advise.Thanks mama.I really need it.Insya-allah i will hold on to it.With the start of this job,i can see my future more clearly now.No more blurry visions.
Finally,an objective in live.I feel more like an adult.(Cheyy...HAHA!)
My future is slowly shaping.Insya-allah.God willing.
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So,its been almost 3 weeks.Alhamdulillah,the people there were friendly.And the kids!How can i not stop talking about them.My babies.My daughters.My sons.As much tantrum they can throw,at the end of the day,they were the reason for the smiles on my face.
My favourite boy:Daney
My favourite girl:Dina,-the twins(Sakeena,Sofeeyah)
Feeling bad for having favourites but they were among the cutest of the cutest!
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Been sick for 4 days straight.Half day yesterday and MC today.
No voice coming out for this few days.Constant dry cough which results in pain in my lower abdomen and chest.And this have drain the energy out of me.
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Regardless,tomorrow will be attending work.Cause there will be a fire evacuation exercise.
Can't wait to see the reaction of the kids tomorrow when the fire drill alarm went off.

That's all for today's post.:)
Giving my love out to all of you.
Assalamualaikum.

O'Allah

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When people start questioning,doubting.

I stood by to defend.Going to the extend of lying.

But she knows.

The heart stood strong.But it is growing weaker by day.

Is it able to withstand all the pain.

Self-inflicted pain.

Is lying to myself worth it.

Is waiting for the change worth it.

I'm sure God knows.

And i hope that,that day will arrive soon.

For now,all i that am holding on to is faith and believe that HE knows the best for me.

O'Allah,strengthen this heart of mine.Cause you are the only one who understood what ordeal i'm going throught right now.

♥

Holiday and ramblings.

Monday.
The day the prophet is born.So there must not be any monday blues whatsoever...cause it is a good day.No matter how much of a bad day monday is,it is still a good day.Make sense no?
Today school officially start.And i woke up late.Due to my forgetfulness to set an alarm.Luckily,mum woke me up.And as usual.Getting a scolding.-.-
Still in a holiday mood.
Seriously,I  just want to be a kampong girl.Lead a normal kampong life.Chase the chicken.Do what any 'anak dara' kampong would do.Oh god.If only life was like that.My life would be STRESS free.Chasing chicken for the guys.Masak-masak.Can't deny that no matter where you put me,i would still love kampong life.Its in my blood.Both sides of my grandparents are malaysians.Only that,on my dad side,they came to S'pore and change their citizenship.Still i'm a PURE blood kampong girl.And i'm proud to proclaimed that.
Holiday was great.Beyond great if there is ever such a word.Mashallah,Subhanallah is all i can say...
Dad was already planning on going to Kedah for a homestay and then go to Langkawi via either aeroplane or bus.Was asked to start saving from now.Oh yes i will.I love my dad.Haha...
Skipping that,can't wait for my lenses and scarf to arrive at any moment this week.Heee...:D
Watch me on tv tonight.RTM 1.Anjung Bestari.9.30pm.Spot me.
Salam...♥♥♥

My family.Missing nek wati and wak.:'(

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Wet Sunday Morning

Hello once again...:)
Well,woke up with a wet morning...Thus,the temptation to just stay stay in bed and curl like one fishball on the corner of the bed till tomorrow.
Yesterday,i end the night by watching a horror movie with my siblings and cousin.Boy,it scares me and the siblings like hell...But for my 14 year-old cousin who didn't brought her spectacle watch it by sitting near the television and I notice not one bit did she attempt run away for her life or close her eyes or talk as much as i am to avoid listening to the sound effect.Salute to her.Cause i tell ya,if it was just me and my siblings we would have ran away and change channels or continue watching but hugging each other like crazy or we would just switch off the television and the outcome of us watching horror movies would be irritating.Love horror,but each of us am a "scaredy cat". -.-
Skipping that,i while watching the horror movie and trying to avoid it at the same time,was bloghopping at my current favourite facebook 'shop?' title pamperdesire which sells contact lenses from korea.
I broke my blogshopping 'virginity' there..It was all due to the cute and cheap lenses that it offers.Am waiting for my lenses to arrive right now...The seller,Nellie,am such a friendly and sweet person!offers great service.Very prompt in replying sms-es and emails....
Talking about great services reminded me about school...Topics we used to cover.Haiyoh...Tsk!
Venturing into a new topic,my dad's guppy just lay and egg!it was a bunch full of them and it left goosebump everytime i talk about it cause the egg will be sticking on the fish tank wall.And all i see will be many transparent circles eggs.But one thing i hate is,one of the guppy keep eating eating those eggs!Very the geram lah teramat sangat...Ish....Hoping i can see a new generation of guppies on the fish tank...And the female guppy is still pregnant!i think so...everyone thinks so...due to the 'buncit-ness' of her tummy/belly...
Enough of that,my belly are hungry..TOodles...And have a great Sunday insya-allah...:)
2 more days!
Salam...♥♥♥

Bismillah..Let's start....

Hello there!Assalamualaikum..
Well..this dusty blog of mine should really be updated after 2 months of ignorance.
Typical laziness to update the blog due to the boring topics that i post which i found personally not attractive enough which i thought was due to the fact  that i run out of topics to talk about.
After some mini soul-searching,decided to share with all of you whats going on daily,on Nadhirah Bte Rahmat life.
Topics to be talk about are already on my head.And i hope i don't forget about what to right tomorrow since i found myself being a 'peluper' lately...
Blame it all on school which i may say last time...But i think i have myself to be blame for all the happenings on my life right now.
Signing off with kisses and huggies.♥
Salam to all my muslim readers...

♥Khamis Jumaat♥

T-H-U-R-S-D-A-Y...
This week will be a laughless week.Due to my lips which contains 4 ulcers that decided to appear on the same time.Blooming like mushrooms.Twice at a time on the left upper lips.Which left me to eat and drink using my right side lips.Don't know how i manage to do that,but i eventually did.
So,though today was a lazy day,for the sake of a friend,i eventually helped her to pass a form to the school office before it closes at 6.
Coincidentally,mum had to picked up little sister from school,so we went out together and i get to eat my CHEESE FRIES!!!:D am a happy girl today.But still a part of me longs for satay.Oww..yummy yum...
I am officially a bored girl.Ok bye.

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♥scratchy itchy feet♥

While everybody was fast asleep on their comfy beds,i was alone.Awake.Staring in front of the laptop and tumblr-ing away like nobody business.Liking and reblogging every stuff or post that i can relate to.Tumblr speaks for me eventually.
This week did not start off good.I was scratching like nobody business mostly on the feet to be exact.Barely sleeping at night.Been thinking about what might cause the itchiness but it came to a dead end.Red spots all over the feet got me thinking if i was having chicken pox or some allergies.
But come to think of it,i do not have any allergies to any food,except rice.Which is my self presumed allergies since the day i dislike eating rice.As for chciken pox,i had one when i was little.So the chances of suffering from one again is a 100 to 1.
Have been asked to apply this cream called 'jelly gamat'. Only to find out it did work.But unfortunately,there is none of that cream left.Soooo,i have been left scratching all day long.What with my 'bengkak' lips.Which makes eating,brushing of teeth and taking wudu' seems a lot tougher than usual.Cause my saliva will be dropping everytime i do one of those activities above.
Its almost 1.30 am in the morning,and i guess i need to force myself to sleep with this itchy feet of mine.Scratching the whole night i guess.Going to the doctor will so be a waste of time and money.
OOohh...To Mr Rahmat Altair Ibn Abu Bakar,good luck for your test tomorrow!
Toodles :)

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♥things happen for a reason♥

"What a wonderful world"...(sings to self)...alhamdulillah...
Weird thing happen today..well,from my point of view at least.Was waiting for the bus to come,when suddenly this uncle around the 50's i assume,strikes a conversation.To cut things short,he was like a heaven sent but weird person.Not any normal person would strike a conversation with you regarding your personal life.Well,there might be some,but the longest sentence they would talk,would be about one,or two.And then,they would mind their own business.And also,mostly aunties would strike the conversation which i don't mind talking with.
Seriously talking,i should not make a big deal out of this,but it was weird lah.Pelik.Everything he say was spot on.I was standing there trying to constraint myself wanting to say "Macam mane cik tau!!!"...He was like an "ahli nujum"..An english fortune teller.Was standing there,like rock.With the frozen smile i gave to him every now and then...Issh...he was like god sent lah...but the only weird thing is,he 'jemput' me to sit on the top of the double decker bus...Like pelik much.Sorrylah uncle...But...hhmm....donnoelah...

 Skipping that,i lost 3 followers at tumblr.Should be either,due to my lack of updating tumblr or because i keep reblogging about religion.Either way,i don't mind already.Not like last time when i will start cursing the follower who unfollow...

Enough of the story telling, its 12.34 am in the morning.And tomorrow i got a birthday party to attend too..got to save those energies for tomorrow...
Buh bye lovelings...;) And to my dearest encik...thanks a lot for today...Ana uhhibuka/ki...:D

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 Pssst..don't forget your bedtime prayers..

♥rezeki ada di mana mana♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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Tali iman yang paling kuat adalah cinta karena Allah dan benci karena Allah.” (HR. At Tirmidzi)

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10.46 am.And what do i do.Just like my mummy,i'm lazing around teaching my siblings for their home-based learning activity.
So,since i am doing nothing,here i am to share with you my experience searching and finding a job for my 2 months school vacation which have been used up for almost 2-4 weeks as of today.Its not good i tell you.Practically super stress.But i am here not to complain about it since,well..its just part and parcel of life right?
Am saving up money to buy a phone that i wanted BADLY since last year,with this year, the pressure to buy the phone is higher since my 2 years contract had just ended.
Continuing,i never knew searching for a job is this tough since my last two job experiences have been fairly well with getting the job on the spot with just one interview being conducted.
My patience is on the verge of breaking and am having sleepless nights just thinking of this.
Skipping the topic,been watching KBS world.Am currently having a weakness for this drama titled Golden era of daughters-in law.And for suria been watching Jeritan Sepi 3 and Nur Kasih which irritates the hell out of me,but still i found myself watching it,cause it is worth watching.
But i think something good comes out of it though.I got to spend more time with my mum,dad and siblings.Making them laugh to ease their stress especially Haziqah.This is what money can't buy.And as much as i want that job and phone badly,it is always on my second priority list.Loved ones come first.:)
Like in korean language: Sarang Haeyo! :D

Muka budak belom mandi dah on computer...tsk3...

Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥one and one only♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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Yang dicari; walau bukan putera raja, biarlah putera agama.
Yang diimpi, biarlah tak punya rupa, asal sedap dipandang mata.
Yang dinilai, bukan sempurna sifat jasmani, asalkan sihat rohani dan hati.
Yang diharap, bukan jihad pada semangat, asal perjuangannya ada matlamat.
Yang datang, tak perlu rijal yang gemilang, kerana diri ini serikandi dengan silam yang kelam. Yang dinanti, bukan lamaran dengan permata, cukuplah akad dan janji setia.
Dan yg akan terjadi, andai tak sama dgn kehendak hati, insyaAllah ku redha ketetapan Ilahi.

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That is all i ask from you.It's not wealth that i search in you,but religion and the pureness of your heart and behaviour to accept me as who i am in regardless state i am in.
I love you.
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Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D
♥

♥baby love♥

                               .Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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Sesiapa yang berkahwin, sesungguhnya ia telah menyempurnakan separuh dari agamanya maka bertakwalah ia pada separuh yang lain  
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Hello,halu,alo alo...watemelon...assalamualaikum.

It's Sunday morning going to be 12 soon in about 45 minutes more. 

Ate Mcdonald mc chicken at about 9am and now i'm craving for more food.Comfort food to be exact.Like fried mushroom.When fried mushroom comes to mind,i can be a little bit selfish..Sho the yummy that i want nobody to taste or even touch that fried oyster mushroom of mine except me of course.

Hate myself for being that way.I need to c-h-a-n-g-e.

So,tomorrow will be my last paper.Can't wait to jump for joy..After all those stressful 16 weeks..We all need a timeout before school starts reopening again on the month of April with freshman on their hands.

Been searching for job and studying at the same time.How irritating can it be when all that you saw on the job posting was "we need bilingual talking person".Everything was perfect,until that sentence pop along and it spoils everything.-.-"

On a happier note,had just visit mum's friend who had just given birth 1 month ago to an adorable super cute,super handsome baby boy.

Had great time holding the baby and talking baby language to the baby.Seeing him smile and laugh when i talk was super cute!I feel like there was a need to kidnapped him and bring him home.

And also had great time laughing and munching on the kerepek that mom's other friend had brought along.

Yesterday was a pretty hectic day.

Now did i know how it was to be a teacher to  students who just can't put enough concentration.

My little scandal,danish and his brother seriously test my patience and put my emotions on hold.

Danish was okay.Though playful,he still can concentrate and not play as much as his little brother who was fidgetting every less than 60 seconds and not attempting on any of his homework questions with just saying 'tak paham'.Even when they say they understood,it practically means "i say i  understand because i don't want to study and hear you nag anymore because i want to play."

Anyhow,they are my scandals.And my prefer teaching them than teaching their sisters who constantly talk about their boyfriends, with me and sis ending up confuse on if they are still attached or single and mixing their guy friends names them and simply make them happy by just nodding our head and pretend we understood and are interested in everything that they say when actually we are crying with misery inside.

Besides that,am having this current addiction on watching titanic and doing a thorough research on it since watching the movie on the 14 of Feb.Kate Winslet is so sexy-lah.

And also other than titanic been watching cooking shows non-stop on youtube since i have been craving for pasta and also partly due to wanting to become chubbier like when i was in primary four and below.

Lastly...the most important thing is..I want to wish an advanced good luck to love for his upcoming test on tuesday and presentation on friday.

Ending with the song,

"jangan tunggu lama-lama....nanti lama-lama...dia diambil orang"

Thank you to my dear cousins who posted this.Oh kamu sungguh memahami jiwa raguku ini di pagi ahad ini...:))

with baby Harith Hamsyari Hamsyar..(triple H) :)

with baby lia..:)

act tembam,tapi konon dah menjadi..shot 2.

act tembam,tapi tak menjadi..shot 1.

mari kita senyum:)

muke kakak-kakak gitu kan...-.-

muke stepping..mintak kena penampar.

Sekian...Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥bookworm-ing♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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Life has taught us that love does not consist in gazing at each other but in looking outward together in the same direction.  ~Antoine de Saint-

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Today is love first day...Am so happy for him...And as i am typing these away,i'm munching on these tidbit crackers that the teacher had given each and every one us... None of the team members was here yet with the two of them just left for late lunch.Am bored dead,so decided to blog.
Well,woke him up at 6.20 am but with failed response.So decided to call him again at 6.30.and yet again,no answer,with me ending up anxiously msg-ing him and waiting him for his response before deciding to call him again if i get no response after 5 mins,which eventually he did.
Oh,i so want to pinch his nose...Hope he have a great day ahead at work.
So for my current addiction,am stuck at reading this book entitled "eat,pray,love" that love had bought for me.
Oh my.It has been so long since i last touch a book and actually reading it without abandoning it and forget all about the book.Am foreseeing myself being a bookworm again since school is coming to an end in a few days time.Am very the happy,but worried at the same time since not much preparation had been done yet for the the upcoming test.
A large burden have been lift of me.Have deleted all the mails in both my hotmail account and blaming myself for creating and using two emails that will just make my life troublesome.It is all due to the first email account that sounds kidd-ish and not appropriate for my use at this age.And it contradicts my personality...
Lastly,can't stop playing this "angry bird" game ever since it was introduce to me on love Iphone application.
Sekian... 
 Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

With the book...Once again,thank you so much!:D

♥lets smile alright♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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Beri hati mu hanya untuk Allah, pasti Allah temukan pada mu pemilik yang terbaik. Hamparkan masa mu seluasnya hanya untuk Allah, pasti Allah aturkan kehidupan mu dengan baik. 

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Wanting to blog,but just no idea what to blog.There's a lot to be written.But words are just not good enough in expressing those feelings,those emotions.

All that i know is somehow,deep down i know this is going to happen.Only i am just good at ignoring it and pushing it aside.Now that it happens,i don't know how to feel and react.

I know its for the better.

You know when the heart refuses to do something that you should.

This alone doesn't explain about how i feel.

You know,how you want to help somebody badly but you couldn't cause you yourself have yourself to be taken care of.

You know you want to tell and share to your friends about it,but with the fear they will misunderstood you and urge you to just move on cause the guy is not worth.

Sometimes family members too..you tell them your story and they,like your friends will judge the guy badly cause he broke your heart and he is not worth and you deserve someone better.

In the end,you gave up.You stop telling them your problems.You keep to yourself.

In the end.Now.I think god has its way,has his own plans.Maybe this are for the better.

I cannot deny that i am sad.I am heartbroken.I feel cheated of my feelings.And i am here not to blame anyone.But,I am okay,i learn to love God in the process.I learn that in order to love somebody,you must love him because of God.And if it doesn't turn out the way you want you will not do foolish things that sometimes people do.It's hard to explain.

But if you are reading this...

I am perfectly okay.I totally respect your decision.No worries.:)

You know this heart still loves you no matter what.Yes i know people may change.I may change.But never once will i forget the love that i had for you...
Sekian... 
 Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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I may not be perfect,but i'll try to be perfect for everybody, for you and for myself.In my own way.I will.Insya-allah.

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Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥Sentimental memories♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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The friend is the man who knows all about you, and still likes you.  ~Elbert Hubbard, The Notebook, 1927
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My heart,my soul,my best friend,my baby love,my everything,my life.Nur Widad Zunah.Oh how much i miss her whenever she's not around..From the way she talks,she screams,she cries,she smiles.Haha!My little drama queen.My little mini me.She's just turning 9 and i feel like she is growing far too fast me... She seems to understand me more than my 18 year old sister and she agree with me for almost about anything.And one event that i just can't seem to forget is when she fell 'sick' for 1-2 months.My heart just drop to see her in that state.Her cries makes me cries.Her strongness going through all the ordeal makes me cries.She is like an adult trap in a child body.No matter how irritating she can be sometimes,i just love her.And now as i'm typing i feel like crying already...haha...So sentimental only.
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Found this picture in the photo album.My bestfriend.Nur Sabrina Bte Mansoor.Almost 17 years now.
She knew practically everything about me that most people doesn't.She was there when a boy screw up my heart.She let me lay on her thigh and stroke my hair like my mum would do.
Hope our friendship will last and may the obstacles that we go through before makes us stronger.
Sayang you.
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My beloved grandma,grandpa, my cousin Nur Aisyah and me(the chubby one)...Haha...How time pass by quickly.And to grandma and grandpa,may you stay healthy and may you be bless with long life...Although i may not visit you as often...In my heart,i still love you.
Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥Every breath you take♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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Shared joy is a double joy; shared sorrow is half a sorrow.  ~Swedish Proverb
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Oh how i miss those kindergarden and primary school moments.Life are so stress free,and we need not need to worry about things like education.Those time when our parents will help us with our school work and also will help us in studying for our exams.
But people grow.Everything changes.And we must accept it regardless how much we hate it.
Its not like i hate growing up.When i was little,i envy those who were adult,now,i envy those kids in those kindergarden uniform.. example my siblings who are now in primary 1 and 3 respectively.
Things are like going downhill for me now.School sucks big time.I try to love every subject that i took.But..the feeling is just not there..No matter how much i try to persuade myself to like it...No chemistry you know...
And i hate myself whining about it almost everyday of my polytechnic life.Like little kid only.And i am turning 20 this 16 of November..-.-
Nonetheless,trying my very best.Like my mum says.Its okay if we fail,as long as we know we had try and fight for it.
But still,hoping for success,even if the chance of it is small.
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Last Saturday,after a zillion years of wanting to bake nutella brownies,at last i manage to do it.
My baking/cooking mood have come..And i hope it last..
The brownies turn out okay.Like my "Chef Ramsey" says i need to cut down on my chocolate chips.
And this is the end result.

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I heart this guy.

My everything.(:
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Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥