♥all i want is you♥

 

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

"In between those flaws,lies perfection...you just got to search for it"

I love Saturday.Saturday is sungguh the manis.Manis like honey...tapi honey lagi manislah.

A saturday spent with the love of my life after close to 3 weeks of not seeing each other.

Mr Abg cute on his notes which i doubt he didn't even notice.

Its the only time when mrt trips which used to take hours,took just 1/2 hour....:((

Oh...and i love his smell....the smell that i wish i could bottle it up and spray it whenever i miss him which is like every second of my breathing life....

Will be baking nutella cake within this week....if time permits insya-allah....and nutella cookies too.....

Mum was not in the mood to raya this year i guess...So this saturday,insya-allah will be going to Geylang yet again to buy clothes...and shawl to match it with.....Thinking of doing henna too....Most likely to buy the clothes at pasar Geylang...more nicer than those at the bazaar.....plus..its cheaper...Dengan ekonomi sekarang...kena saving-saving...

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Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan :

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥Mood jiwang ah babe....inilah isi hati saya....♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

Do you have this feeling when you feel like no one else understands you right now and you feel like the world is crumbling all over you  and you are now crush like oreo biscuits in oreo cake.

I will talk nonsense when i feel shitty.Like now.

I feel like a 6 year old kid all of a sudden.

And i start listening to sentimental songs.Break up songs.

After that,i will remember budak tu and how he used to layan my crap sampai pukul 3 pagi...till he tertido...

Haha...Irritating nyer budak...Lepas tu marah biler org letak telephone...padahal dier yg tdo....

Well,I miss him.Well not miss dier pasal...pasal...EHEM EHEM....its waaaayyyy over.....I miss being kawan dengan dier....,

Now u see....Merepek kan....Tapi siapa yang sanggup layan my merepek-Ness melainkan dier.....

But budak ni mintak kena tumbok....Asal break, sms orang...asl sms org, break....Pelik punyer anak...

Haiiyoo....Malas nak layan you know...Memang tk dilayan pon....Tapi kesian tu pon ader....Dah mcm my younger brother pulak dier....HAHA....sorryyy......

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 Lelaki nie,tak tau nak menghargai kasih sayang seorang perempuan kadang-kadang....Sakitkan hati perempuan tu dengan cara sengaja atau tak sengaja....Lepas tu...bila perempuan tu tegor sikit...tak terima...Pelikkan....Bila dah kehilangan perempuan tu barulah tercari-cari....Ingat kita nie aper....Tempat puaskan nafsu ker...Ingat kiter patung...Kita nie kalau sayang...sayang betol2...takder maen2....kadang2 tu aderlah ckp laki ni handsome lah,macholah...tapi padahal...padahal...

Biarlah dier seburuk maner...perangai seburok maner....hati kalau dah sayang...kite sayang....dierlah paling macho....paling handsome...dialah intan payung kita...Dia macam anak kite...

Kadang2 sayang sangat...sampai nak menangis dibuat nyer...Sebab pikir kite nie macam budak bodoh gitu....

Janganlah permainkan hati kita yer....janganlah salahkan kite bila kite tak percaya  lelaki2 nie lagi.....

Oklah...But nonetheless,

"Ya Allah.Tolonglah hambamu yang lemah ini.Kamu sahaja yang memahami isi hati hamba,kasih sayang hamba.:'( " 

Sekian...
.Diakhiri dengan :

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥Ana uhhibuki♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

Oh today was oh so 'good'.

Spent hours in the bathroom singing "namun jangan engkau lupa" and "majulah singapura".

Yes.It was that painful.

I wonder how labour would be like for me in the future.Would i be singing "majulah singapura" too to avoid the pain.?

I think i would prefer my husband to bring dozens of cleanse water that have been read with quranic verse.Lagi mujarab.Insya-allah.

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Have difficulties sleeping yesterday...slept at almost 3am.Woke up at 12.45pm.

Still in denial that i woke up that late.

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Ramadhan this year have been great.Alhamdullilah.

Firstly:Spiritually...

All thanks to my mum,have start watching ceramah.I never realise how informative and great it was.

I learn a lot of thing.And one of them was about love.

I now learn that love is not just about loving.There is more to love than just love itself.

I learn how to Love Allah first before others.And with that,i have found this peace within myself that i have been searching all this while.All those insecurities.I'm learning how to cope with it.I learn how to love with all my heart in a different kind of way.I just wish that this love that i am going to give to this particular person will be accepted by HIM.If it's not meant to be,then it's not meant to be.I'm not going to be like those old times where i would cry and be in a depression mode for what i feel for the rest of my life.

What accompany my love for him is doa.Doa that he will be there to accompany me not only till death.But also during afterlife.

Doa that he will be happy even if he is planning his future without me in it.Haha...

Insya-allah.Amiinnn~~

And i'm saying this bukan nak minta simpati eh....:)

 Secondly:Relationships with mum have been better.Spending time and disturbing her more in the kitchen.And with that,i have learn to cook quite a few dishes.

Thirdly:Dad have been quite a help.Helping mum to wash the dishes.Awww...so the manis.Nak aku carik laki macam gitu.

Like research shows:Women tend to choose someone who is more or less the same like her father.

101% true.At least it was...to me.Only one thing that  i wish to change about him was for him to show his love more and not just keep it to himself.

Other than that,one thing i love most about him,is his agama wise.That's the NUMBER 1 thing.I miss those days when we pray together and he become the imam.

Oh how i love him,only god knows.

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Just have a chat with sis yesterday about how BORING i was.And when i mention about it,she already know where i was heading.Tsk.Am i that predictable...I guess so...after spending 18 years with me.

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Okay dah.

 Bye.

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥its friday♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

H-o-r-r-i-b-l-e.

HORRIBLE sunking feeling.Tsk.

Okay dah.

 Bye.

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥ I miss you, love♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

Its WET-nes day...cause its raining.

Whenever it rains in the morning,i have issues.I will start to moan and the issues will start.

Issues with my Bed.Issues with myself.

Issues with bed as the bed won't allow me to go off.

Issues with myself as i would be lazy to go to school and will be dragging my feet..like every single day...only this time..it is heavier....

Nonetheless,fire drill at school today.
Almost more than a quarter of the students "cabot".It was funny seeing the school authority chasing the students like mad dogs.
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Reach home early today.Clean the bedroom and eat maggi cup while watching tv.
Mio tv was OK..no good enough only because there was no "Cinta Fitri" drama
 there.BOOO~~~what a waste.Hook on watching anything wedding-related nowadays.
And i suddenly want a son in the future.Baby boy is super cute.So random.Haiishh....
Miang.Gatal.Tak Sabar nak kahwin.That is what my sis and mom told me.Tsk.
This is what i had planned for the future:Finish school.Work.Get married.Have kids.Become a good housewife.
Tadaaa!!!Oh boy....-.-
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Today's dish was lemak cili padi ayam.Favourite dish of all.Nothing beats it.Simple to cook.Can cook with one eye close.I want to teach my future husband to cook this.:D I'm a descendant of malacca people.And we malacca-NS like dish wish is BER-lemak.
Sis and me always fantasize that our ancestors are Hang Tuah.Till now.Lame.I know.But we just can't help it.HAHA...:p
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Love is sick.And i'm sick too.
Worried sick thinking about him that is.
I bought him his favourite chocolate.Feel like flying over to his house and gave him the chocolate.:)
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Sheng Siong supermarket already prepare for Hari raya.How i know?
It is by placing all the butter,bottle of essence,flour and so many baking stuff at the front door.
And i feel like grabbing all the stuff and bake.
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Lastly...Do i look so young?Not that it is a bad thing.
Well,there is this insurance person promoting about their company and stuff.
He ask how old am i.And i said that i am turning 19 this year.And he laugh. yes.HE LAUGH.-.-
As though it was a joke.Keep my cool and just smile.Pathetic.
I look older with my "tudung" on.But,without the tudung i look like god-knows-how-old-he-think-i-am.
TIll then.
Bye.Bye. :)

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥My-day,moan-day,monDay♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

 

Its My-Day today...and i feel like painting rainbows and sunshine all over the gloomy Singapore.

It's the 2nd last week of school with 2 days of classes only next week.

A great day to start the day with,with a 'great' facilitator.When everything was going good, someone or something just had to spoil it.And i don't understand a single thing about today.Prim's and Kruskal's algorithm.

Oh well.Take one step at a time.

 And this is what i did during the first study break.

Tortilla with extra ham and cheese for today.

Bye. :)

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥CUPCAKES,I should call you Mr Cuppycakes♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

Annyeong Haseyo people.....:)    
Sunday.S-U-N-D-A-Y.It just had to be Sunday.
Should be off to JB today,but it just had to be cancelled.For the third time which kind of piss me off,but maybe it was just God way of showing.."Its not the perfect time to go there" yet.
Nonetheless,last week of school as of tomorrow.Grinning from ear to ear.Y-A-Y!!After 15 torturing and stressful weeks,i hope next semester will be a better one and not to mention 3-4 weeks of holiday.
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Ramadhan Al-Mubarak is around the corner.And all people could mention about,was Hari Raya.Puasa belom,dah cakap pasal hari raya.Tsk3....
Ramadhan=Waking up 5 am in the morning=Terawih prayers with sis,mum and my friend Shakeela=Henna tattoo on hand.
Oh so good.Few more days...Lesser than 2 weeks to be exact..Hopefully it will be a fruitful one.
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By the way,Saturday was good.Went to the gym with love and bff.Oh i so miss both of them pretty much that i feel like pinching their noses and giving them my favourite bear hugs.:D
So,went there with the aim of flatting my oh so BUN-cit stomach.Love was looking hot&sexy with those shorts on...HAHA...
Saw my cousin there.He don't even recognise me.Tsk.-.- Want to approach but was having second thoughts,cause at second glance he looks like a chinese.Till now,he have yet to accept my request at FB.
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Lately having cravings of all sorts.Mcm orang mengandong.I know.Craving for stuff like chocolates and soups.
Oh cupcakes and cookies,let me bake you this coming august alright.With love,peaNad.:)
That's all that i could think of for the moment.Should be updating more often.Give me topics to talk about.
I need i-n-s-p-i-r-a-t-i-o-n-s.
I want my mushroom soup.And Raihan songs is on my playlist for quite a while now.
Ok bye.
Toodles.:D
 Annyeong!!!!!!

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥