♥marhaba elbe♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

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There is an inner beauty about a woman who believes in herself, who knows she is capable of anything that she puts her mind to. There is a beauty in the strength and determination of a woman who follows her own path, who isn’t thrown off by obstacles along the way. There is a beauty about a woman whose confidence

comes from experiences;who knows she can fall,pick herself up,and move on.

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How should i start this off?

When i thought that i would be okay if he were ever to mention the famous "B" word.It wasn't.

I was trying to be okay.Lying to myself every minute of the second.

I am in a mixture of feelings like a yoghurt with different toppings on top.

An explosion of things that you want to say,to do but you just can't put your mind into it or phrase it into words.

Just great isn't it.

This is just a part and parcel of life.I'll try to incorporate that into my life everyday.Or is it.

Things are falling into a downfall.

Ingat Allah she says.

But still she finds it hard.Not to remember HIM but doing the things..things...Its a tough explanation.

Step into my shoes.And you will feel what i feel.

Its not about age ya' know.Its about how the surroundings affects us.

It can be on how our parents brought us up into too...

I was brought up in a so call half conservative half not family.So that is how it shape me.That is where i got my personality from.That is why sometimes..Hmm...

Had a super long conversation.

It was like a wake up call.

Just need to wake up.First thing.

Apply those things.Just act like how i act around my friends.More opening up.And confidence.

Maybe being to much of a "soft-hearted" person.

Like a situation which happen recently...till she steps on my head and take advantage of what me and my family had done to her.

Feel like screaming my heads off and just give her one tight slap.

But to do that,i am not too good of a person to do that to her.Am i right?

Its her choice.And don't blame me if i were to turn away from you dear friend.

Oh God...

In the end.I think the problem lies with me.I choose not to take notice the changes that is happening around me.Pretending that everything will be ok.Problems will settle by itself.

"Everybody's changing..and i don't feel the same".

Its time for a change.

A change.

Cause its not like what it seems anymore.
I'm 19.And i got to make my own choices in life,with my parents as my teachers and guiders in life.

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Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥Assalamualaikum Cinta♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.
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“Tonight, when Allah is accepting Duas, may yours be one of them. When He is forgiving people, may you be one of them. When He is showering His mercy down, may it land on you and when you meet your friends & relatives in Jannah, may I be with you. Ameen :) [via FB Sister]”

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Butterflies.My tummy is having butterflies....Wondering what is giving me butterflies?While waiting for a video to load,went into facebook(as usual) and pretty much behaving like a stalker(who doesn't) browse through this particular person photos of her cousin,friend,kakak,adik(whoever that is) getting ready for nikah...those photos make me go awww like crazy and grinning to myself from ear to ear like one mentel kid...-.-' The photos was so sweet...*picturing my own version of nikah session..me in the bedroom awaiting for the akad nikah* haha...ok....stop

You see,last Saturday nenek slept over due to atok being admitted to tan tock seng due to his skin condition and leg pain..was interogating my nenek at what age did she get married.And surprisingly she remembered it...

She was 17 when she officially became a wife to my atok Karim who is one year older which is 18 years old.

They get married at my kampong which is at Malacca but migrated over to Singapore and change over their citizenship to Singaporeans which explains why  mostly my cousin are in various parts of Malaysia which consist of mostly KL and Malacca.

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Enough of history session,school was becoming a chore lately.But trying my very best not to partial or skip school either because of valid reason or not valid reasons.

The understanding test(UT) which take 10% of our score was like seeing ABCDEFGHIJKLMN all over the screen....

Was lucky enough to manage to do some of the questions...

Insya-allah Nadhirah Bte Rahmat boleh!:D

I want IPHONE!!tsk.okay topic out..sudden craving for Iphone.....

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My sister that i love very much will be completing her 'A' s soon...one more paper to go..MCQ!!
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Lastly..not to mention...Harry Potter and the Deathly Hollows Part 1 was SPECTACULAR.Thanks love for watching it with me though you hate Harry Potter this much*(________________________________________x10)* much.
The trip to Marina Barrage was cancelled due to the weather...
Bukan rezeki kiter to go there sayang...Prolly next time okay...we'll enjoy ourselves banyak2 kat situ alright....:)) Everything that happens have its reason....
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Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥ Friend,you are giving me one big of a headache.But i still love you okay.♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.
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“Tonight, when Allah is accepting Duas, may yours be one of them. When He is forgiving people, may you be one of them. When He is showering His mercy down, may it land on you and when you meet your friends & relatives in Jannah, may I be with you. Ameen :) [via FB Sister]”

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And so,today was a pretty tiring day.Though all i do was help mum with some of the minor household chores before i found myself asleep on my younger siblings bed.

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Was supposed to study for the upcoming test on tuesday,but end up doing none of the things that i have planned since last week.Bagos kan?

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Auntie from Johor came over .Typical  'ambeklah babat cik diah ni sikit'...And Sabrina just say i appear chubbier..So,which is which?

And my anak sedara was giving me a heart attack with those stories of hers.She was just primary 5!

When both me and my sister was her age,we don't even knew those things.

And my shoes?She can't even fit in those.And i was size 6.-.-

Kids nowadays...

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Looking forward to this Saturday...Harry Potter and the deathly hollows Part 1...Heee....:D
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Tomorrow will be a pretty hectic day...Republic Polytechnic at 9 am for little sister school's event.Alone till 1pm....
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Just found out both grandparents are sick...Grandma have a 'bengkak' leg and Grandpa have a fever...
Get well soon atok&nenek :) I love you...
Flu season with classmates at school mostly having flu...
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Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥New skin :)♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.
“Tali iman yang paling kuat adalah cinta karena Allah dan benci karena Allah.” (HR. At Tirmidzi)

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So,just change my blogskin..Like how kids nowadays will say:"amaciam?"

Nice?

Am lazy to blog for now.

And 4 more days! :)

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Sekian...

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*assalamualaikum*

I love you :D

♥

♥Babies♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

"Kita masih muda dalam membuat keputusan,tetapi cukup matang untuk memilih keputusan"

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I miss my honeybunch above.I miss my babies.Well,not practically my babies..but..i miss them.
The kecoh mak cik and her sister.It had been a few months since i last saw them.Well,after my sister finish her major exam,i will make sure to drag my sister along to visit them.And not just say "adik rindu lia..*inserting sad face*..tau2 die dah pandai lari..." but not doing anything about it....-.-
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My 10 month old anak sedara...haven't meet her before since the day she was born...muker mak dier habes.Cute kan?Bile lah boleh jumpe die...
It have been months and months since i last step foot on my village.
More anak sedara's that i haven't visit nor seen before and some expecting.I think.
Mama!Nak Balik Kampung!:(
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Sekian...

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*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥

♥this heart,its for you.Insya-allah♥

.Bismillahirahmanirahim.

"The way to show someone you love them is to show them you care and you will always be there for them no matter what happens and pray for them, always."

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Sunday.Ahad.
One sentence.Simple but sweet.
Perfect weather.Perfect everything.The only misfortune is TIME.
Time envy every human being.If not being spent properly,every minute,every second is wasted.
Although the time spent was short,couldn't ask for a more perfect Sunday evening with love.
Angin yang sepoi2 bahasa berlatarkan latar belakang yang cantik-nya,Subhanallah.
Sorry for the mix of language ok ;)
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Am reading buku "Secantik Aishah"
Hoping to finish it by end of next week.
Qouted this from somewhere:"kalau kita miskin,janganlah kita cemburu orang yang kaya,kalau paras rupa kita tak seberapa cantik,janganlah cemburu orang yang paras rupa nyer cantik,sebaik nyer cemburulah orang yang tinggi iman nyer sesungguh nyer,ia akan membawa kita ke syurga."
Nadhirah Bte Rahmat.Keep that qoute in your head alright.:)
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Anyway,cousin's cousin coming over tomorrow.
Miss that tall lanky girl.Dapatlah kau jumper abang kesayangan kau tu eh..
Hopefully your stay extended till Hari Raya Haji ok?
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RP have been famous lately for all the wrong reasons.
First with the attire.No slippers to school or else you will be ask to leave the school for that particular lesson.
Second is with the student smoking at the coffee shops and void decks.
Third is with the killing of a third year student name Darren,school of engineering,Diploma in Industrial and Operation Management which turns out to be the same course that i am taking.May god bless that soul of his.
Bagos kan? Destroy the school reputation only.-.-
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Lastly,school have been getting tough to cope with lately.
Modules taken getting harder to understand.Nevertheless,need to persevere.After getting thoughts to quit school and getting advice from love,i question myself and realize how foolish am i to have this sort of thinking.
While other people will be glad to trade places with me just to get themselves into polytechnic,here i am thinking of qutting.
Hardwork,perseverance and doa is all that i have to accompany me throughout this last few years at school.
Insya-allah.What is success without failure.If others can,why can't I.:)
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Sekian...

.Diakhiri dengan

*assalamualaikum* 

I love you :D

♥