Yipee class was as usual....GREAT!!!!gosh,i'm in love with thursday...He treats us like an adult..He is not like any other faci. he likes to act in a childish manner but he still manage to control the class and not make us go overboard..I notice that by him doing this it makes us respect him more as a faci....So,my advice to the other faci,take Mr Yipee as the example and you can receive respect from your students....Seriously,i feel like i am being a miss know-it-all already.....haha:p

Today,meet up with zura at the school's bus stop..Receive her msg abt 7.07 am and i was in the toilet bathing haha...the continous msg that i receive from her are so damn funny!!!I was inserting my contacts when suddenly my mum went into my room with sardine sandwich again....So chit-chat with her and she help me reply the msgs...we were laughing throughout the chit-chat session because of zura responds to my msg....

Tomorrow,i'm going out...with someone..maybe...i don't know yet.My mum and friend encourage me to go..Hmmm...
And there's this new friend whom i msg just to say that it's nice meeting ...U go figure the gender..
My heart is in a dilemma..I never felt so confused.
Need someone to hug me now and gave me a definite answer to all my questions.And i hope god show me his guidance through the challenges that he had given me....

Anyway.now there is a show going on...manfrod just walked using claire wedges around the class and he do this cabaret poses using the chair, while danny took his video...man..i love watching it.....wakakakakaka:p

♥Hey mr
♥You are my secret lover....

have not post the pictures of the day yet..cause i am too plain tired..haiyoo....lazy me....:p

am plain lazy to blog right now...just now i was super excited to blog...then the excited-ness go away...i don't know why.The effect of school is finally felt..The tiredness that i have not felt before finally come...

Tomorrow class is going to be fun..i hope..cause it is mr yipeee!!!!!class...he wants us to call him yipee...lame right..i know...but he's the best of all faci...
we can chat at msn as and when we like...and i like his straight fowardness...
I like guys who are straight forward...If they got something to say just say it...No need to keep it to yourself....

Miss my girlfriends...We need to hangout sometimes...
And there's this call from a company saying that i am the selected ones for an attachment..Hmmm...should i or should i not go?

so,to sum up today class,it have been great.Though i have no clue what the heck the faci is talking about.All i do is sms someone and it makes my day.Cause when i am super bored and i am down with no msn,i need someone to entertain me at class..Seriously the faci have been asking a lot..i mean A LOT!!! of questions..she shoot us with many questions and we are left clueless..The same goes to other teams...Tuesday is gonna be a SUPER SUPER bored and long day...everybody are like looking foward to Yipee class on thursay..Tuesday and Friday are my horror days....Throughout the class just now,me,nizam,zura and some of the others are munching away..Haha!!!By the way,just now there is a server crash inside my class.Cannot open LEO...And i am finding that Darren is super cute...hahahax!!!lol.sshhhss....it's normal right...can be my brother..cause he is younger...

Pictures of the day will be uploaded.But not just yet cause i have to do my reflection journal...

Just realized that i am going through the same cycle everyday..And its making me bored..Have a chit chat session with my mum just now...haha:p so funny lah she...mother's outing??wakakaka....

I am totally confused.

♥Hey mr
♥You are my secret lover....

Again....SPH service message is killing me...i want to unsuscribe but i don't know how..It makes me paiseh a lot of time...And i hate it cause my mum will laugh at me..
The guys in our class are busy playing games...Their usual routine...Haha:p
The cca open house is today...No idea of which group to join..hmm...maybe i should just attend talks and seminars..

My webcaming session have officially start...and nizam caught me in the act...haha:p

I suddenly remember his words..Good luck on finding a new guy who can love you and.....The rest of the msg are for me to keep and remember..I deleted most of his msg cause it is flooding my inbox..It hurts but i have the strength now to let the past go...We both just can't be together...And now,reading the sms makes me feel irritated...His attitude just .....I think the quote love is blind is true...and we cannot deny it....

♥Hey mr
♥You are my secret lover...

am having break right now...everybody just arrived from the respective shops in school.zura and me as usual brings food to school to save money and today nizam also brought his own food which is instant fried mee with sausages WHICHhe cooks himself and i find it unbelieveable..So tempting lah sei...And i am eating POCKYand Roti john.Zura brought nasi sambal goreng to school...God!!!!Her sambal goreng is so damn good and i love it..

Anyway today's faci is such a bitch!!!She didn't come to school last week...She's got a lot of story to tell and imagine NO MSN allowed...i so hate her...Being a good girl today cause there's no msn-ing for me..Yesterday,i receive this anonymus sms.It turns out to be nadhir's friend.I feel like hentaming nadhir now...but you know i won't right...hehe:p

Finally i get my wireless mouse working...All thanks to nizam...It turns out that my battery have not been put correctly..."Clever me"....hahhaa:p

Have not take photo yet..The webcaming session have not started just yet...:)

♥Hey mr
♥You are my secret lover...

PICTURES OF THE DAY!!!!!:):)
27 April 2009

note to alya:you know that dress?hmm....hehehes:p

Today's class have been SUPER SUPERfun...who agrees with me?i know cheryl would...hehes:p Gosh!!!i LOVE them so much that i miss them already.There's no monday blues in my class except for a few people..My team today are super crazy..They kept laughing till me and cheryl were joining them too...Darren is so damn HOT and CUTE!!!!i can't believe he is single..He have killer smile...just seeing it will make every girl melt...LOL.Today's topic were about strange actions.It is actually about magnetic thingy...It was interesting but halfway my mind is off to lala land already....Nevertheless at least it is better than studying about blood.HaHA:p

Today,i brought sardine sandwiches to school.I'm going to save money for my dress and bangles obsession plus belt and ermm..bag...haha:p Now my qn is answered.I will receive $5 everyday...i think...At least that is what i heard from my mom this morning...hehes:p YAY!!!!For me...Off to take a shower now...Don't you realise Singapore is getting hotter every single day...Global Warming...Haaiiishh....Will be uploading photos that is taken today at class... Dada....

♥Hey mr
♥You are my secret lover...

so today have been a quite fun+ boring day.Spent the day today with my family members at the mini fun fair in front of civic centre.At first i thought there are gonna be a lot of fun rides there,but it is super boring.Most of the time i was snapping away pictures of myself and others while drinking strawberry flavoured bubble tea.My 6 turning 7 year old sister enjoyed herself there,so it is good for her then,but not for me.But my 5 year old brother just don't seem to enjoy himself there as he is super super shy and is hiding behind my mum's back the entire time.And my dad get super fed-up with him.And we all minus my mum ride on the viking boat.And i was sitting at the back with my sis and throughout the ride i was saying nonsense stuff like "adek!!nyilu nyer!!adek org raser mcm nak mati and more stuff while taking pictures and the mention of "mati" make my sis worried.
Then,my mum,dad and 2 small siblings went to AL-AMIN to eat while me and my sister went home.I sseriously hate and love bazaar.They make me spent a lot there.Damn them...haha:p Bought 2 hotdog cheese,keropok lekor and 1 black button cardigan.On the way to the interchange,bump into my aunt with her family.But our conversation was cut short cause the bus she her bus just arrived.
Went home and watch lost tapes at discovery channel.At first,i don't believe what my sis says about the lost tapes.But after watching it,i was the one crying and kept repeating the last words that he managed to say before being eaten by that DAMN melagaria which is some sort of komodo dragon but bigger and they are thought to be extinct.I kept cursing at the animal saying i curse you will become a vegetarian.I think i am talking crap...
And now,am chatting with aishah and julian.julian is so sweet.He takes the effort to learn and know malay just to express his words...That girl is so so so lucky....

My contacts is making me crazy now.Everthing i see becomes blur.*worried expression*.Need to take it off soon.

That's all from naddy today...

♥Hey mr
♥You are my secret lover...

Well,nothing better to do than blog right..so early in the morning(10.20am) while i am having my beauty sleep i am being rudely being woken up by my brother's crying.Gosh!!I feel like slapping him.So what did i do?I shout at him like a mad women with a messy bun hair...I feel like an old women ser.I hate being interrupted in my sleep.Especially during times when you are having a some sort of romantic moment like you are married with your crush or something like that when suddenly...BBBZZZZZ..interruption,there's something wrong withthe telecast.The signal is not strong enoguh.GOOOSSSHHH!!!!!It always...ALWAYS!!!!happen.and i will wake up feeling like crying cause i don't get to continue the part....shitt...i think i am going crazy.

So,update update...yesterday went to woodlands library to meet my new best friend,alya at 6pm.haha:pWhile waiting,ask yazid to accompany me.supposed to do reflection journal but end up staring at the screen and talking to him.After,that alya arrived to save my day and i end up going to her house to do my rj and watch korean dramas.Plus we ate dinner too and alya gave me this gorgeous dress and bangle.I sayang alya banyak2.Seriously,i love her bangles collection.Reach home at 10pm yesterday.so damn tired:p

Chat with kinson and my dear dear aishah..Kinson wants his name to be mention.So kinson,your names is here!!!hahaha:p I love you best friend.Chat with aishah about relationships,and crushes and admires...so damn funny..love the chatting session yesterday.I so miss nadia webcaming,and i want to go out with my cousin aisyah!!!

that's it...i'm so damn sleepy.zzz.....and i miss him.

in class now...am having break.getting ready for 3rd meeting presentation..and i am so damn bored!!!!the faci today is being such a bitch ser.ok,continueing...i'm bored..as in bored dead!!!!i feel like dying...the malay boys went for friday prayers i supposed and the class is so damn quiet minus some conversations and music being loud speakered.....and plus,it is so cold...i should have brought my sis hoodies...i miss jacintha!!!she's missing right now...i can survive here because of her jokes...haha:pshe's super cute and funny...

no one,want to msn me today...except haziq who just went offline..supposed to go to friday prayers but he instead cabot from class..hahax:Pmiss mr polar bear...shiitt...i hate it when this happens...

will be meeting alya at wlb today at 6...yay!!!

I am sitting on my hard wooden parador floor...have just finished doing my reflection journal on leo.i'm going to make my post short this time compare to my previous post.
School was fun but tiring.Today i was in group 3.We learn about programming.we all shortform it to turtle lesson.Didn't go for lunch today.Instead i stay at class and ate with zura...in the meantime knowing each other better.It was great.
Bump into rozmira...i didn't notice her...she was the one who notice me and shouting nadhirah nadhirah!!!i was like searching for who it is cause i was busy talking with zura...
I so envy zura....haha!!!she is so cute.It was her anniversary and her boyfriend did this romantic stuff like blind folding her and then guide her way..and when he open the blindfold for her she saw this lighted candle form into a heart shape on the grass.I was like..awwwwwwwwww!!!!so romantic ser..i want that type of guy...even my dad never did that to my mum...haha!!!Hope your relationship last till eternity....
Will be meeting up with sab after school tomorrow...but i'm damn tired ser....haha!!!
let the pictures do the talking for you.
By the way:addicted to malu tapi mahu....terasa i...and i'm confused...i want a hug can?

currently at school...i am afraid of my own heart...oh my....i need my gfs right now...feeling guilty...misinterpretation may be the problem...

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.
The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.
Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of:

You are concerned about your image and the way others see you. This means that you try very hard to be accepted by other people. It's time for you to believe in who you are, not what you wear.
Who is your true self:

You like privacy very much because you enjoy spending time with your own thoughts. You like to disappear when you cannot find solutions to your own problems, but you would feel better if you learned to share your thoughts with a person you trust.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
my personality test....go and try it yourself..its freaking true!!!

Get ready for the long post...hahax!!!
okay...have been m.i.a for 3 days....UPDATE!!UPDATE!!!anyway the orientation was....boring...NOPE!!!!!!!it was SUPER SUPER FUN!!!!!!!!!!gosh....i want to repeat the orientation again...and there's a lot..i mean A LOT!!!of hot guys....but i have my mind set on this cute guy...on my group...don't even laugh...his name is the same as minE minus the "-AH"...he is super cute!!!!!the malay guys was not ok at first...so noisy...but as i get to know them,they are actually nice and funny....and i was the only malay girl there cause the other malay girl who is with her bf never mix with me...so..what to do..i mix with the chinese girls which is way way million times better....they are so cute and funny...glad to have them in my group....mimi was like my big sister though we are the same age...but i love the girls all the same...the boys too....and i have a great team leader...wilfred...they all call bird...its a long story on how it become bird...we are like the most enthu,craziest,BESTEST group ever....we clique instantly....like long lost friend..haha!!!

so yesterday hang out with alya cause i'm bored at home...nothing better to do than hang out...she's so cute...i like...hang out at rp...told haziq and nadhir about it and they was like"rp?takder tempat lain ker...that's the last place yang aku nak lepak..."haha!!!i was laughing my ass out...i know..rp?but its the only place that is near to hang out...so camwhore with my darling alya...i have become a better photo taker thanx to her..i know how to take nice photo already...haha!!!syg alya byk2....after lepak at rp walked to cwp but before that eat lollies at 7 eleven..more camwhore..eat lunch,dinner...?i don't know...mixture of both i guess....then went to woodlands library....accidentally meet al'ya ,ex-madrasah friends...open laptop check facebook,chat at msn..then i went home around 7+ cause my mum already noisy...call call non-stop....accompanied by a'ya till out of civic..and i bought a new bag!!!!

first day of school,was fun...meet up with my group members at 8.15am infront of 7 eleven...we were like hi hi hi!!!and remind each other of the illegal gathering....hahax!!!aniwaes i am a teacher....malay teacher!!!to wennie...she's so cute....i give her A+ for her malay...haha!!!today class learn about blood...science topic..and i dnon't even learn biology...it's my sis favourite subject...i wish she was here to help me just now...ahax!!!webcaming and msn-ing each other throughout the entire day not to mention facebooking....webcam with nadia....hahaa!!!!i was going to burst out laughing seeing her making funny faces...that pretty girl..she just get her heart broken....only stupid guy will break her heart...never eat lunch today cause the food court was damn packed!!!just ate bun from 7 eleven...eat at class though we were not supposed to...who cares....!!!!and i hate this guy from my class....mr know-it-all...go and fuck off ar you...haha!!so not me to say like that...we were all gossiping about him....seriously...feel like smacking his face...klau handsome takper ah...and the presentation was ok...so-so....

later,hang out at a food court near school cause wilfred want to treat us drinks...reach home at 5+ and at 6.30 fetch my sister from her transport below the block...and now...i'm in front of my laptop...it's been a while since i watch televison..i'm stuck with my laptop now....practically 24 hours....

and just found out rozmira my dear old bestie was in the same block and level as i am...hope to bump into her this few days....and the webcam session with al'ya on saturday was fun...stay up until 3 am and we dance like one hell of a just person...laughing and each other....and at the same time chat with mimi and all...haah!!!fun....i loike...pictures will be upload....or check my facebook....

kisses....
btw aishah,aisyah,sabrina,a'liah aka aly...i miss you guys already!!!!!and i love aly bangles...in LOVE with it....planning to accompany my sis to go to far east,bugis,amk...i don't know....see first how tomorrow....and i forgot what to write...haha!!!

kisses...againn...sleepy lah ser....:p
lecture tom for my course at 12.30-1.25...it sucks...blueekk....luckily have friend...<3<3<3

minus one girl name fiqah and the guys...
so my orientation was ok?so-so is the perfect word....half fun half boring...my team leader's name is wilfrid...so funny....i was like alone when i reach there...imagine!!!no friends whatsoever....but later this chinese girl make friends with me while playing games...hehes:p i wonder why people have difficulties pronouncing my name...i like peole who can spell my name correctly...and it's not many...like super little....hahax!!!!and my class is W14R....just check it just now....

anyway i msg him gd nite wishes yesterday....and he do not know who i am...he sms-ed me saying sape nie and he called like way morning at 6 plus....i am relieved and sad at the same time...mixed feeling....

am having issues on what clothes to wear tom and it is not even school yet!!!
will update more on friday night....

kisses....

just finish uploading(is it the correct term?)music on my phone...just figured out how to do so, though it have been a few weeks since i have this phone...mostly my phone now is fill with heartache songs...for the meantime i hope...
watching tom and jerry on cartoon network...i am reminded of aishah...hehes...:p she is so cute like jerry....the cartoon is so funny...tom is like super naughty and bad and jerry is like cute and innocent but like to bully tom...haha!!!

tomorrow is the start of my orientation...so the nervous lah ser...then next week will be the start of school...urrrghhh!!!!!first and second day will be from 9-5pm...and on the last day i think it will be 8.30-9...need to bring the laptop somemore..check my timetable on the school webby and it stated that it is from 8.30am-4.45pm....like working hours...and not liking it...just hope for the best lah tomorrow.....furthermore need to adjust my sleeping hours as i sleep late about 2-3am and wake up at 9,10 and mostly 11+ am..hehess:p better meet hot guys there...ahax!!hopefully they are on my class...:p

my brother is still having fever...and if he is still not getting better by today,he will be taken to the hospital...that's what my dad said to my mum....

currently allergic to teenage couples...haha!!!obviously not my mum and dad for sure....

listening to i hate this part my PCD...finally i got back my computer after it have been 'stolen' by my mum which refused to give it to me until she finished playing club penguin for my little sis....what lah ser...haha!!and she laughed at me....
when i wake up everyday..two things will go missing...my laptop and phone...last time it used to both of them..but now..its just my laptop cause my phone have run out of something interesting thing to see....

my little siblings been sick for 3 consecutive day...but my brother is still not feeling well so he's not going to school...

it's 1.04pm according to my laptop's clock...so HE must be sleeping instead of eating lunch...laying against his chair and sleep...urrghhh....i think i am talking nonsense this few days...my period have not been regular either...its like 2 times in a month now...

so hungry and i have been craving for indomie fried mee..haaiiishh....

its getting worse....but i am braving myself to go through this ordeal....
have been keeping myself busy chatting with my fb friends...talking with sabrina...and laughing...though i know deep inside it's hurting...

but yesterday afternoon,have a short fight with my mum,which end up with me crying... i feel so stupid...and i'm not liking it....have been staring into my bedroom wall and listening to love song so as to comfort myself which in return do me no good but instead make me feel worse...i know it will bound to happen..but i just ignore...

sab has call saying she got a news,got me and my mum thinking...about him...we thought it was about him...but,it was about her room...haha!!!she got me worried alright...ingat pasal aper...

but this incident have brought me and my mum closer...which i like...we talk about relationships like never before...and i feel like hugging her and cry my balls out...but am too ashamed to do so though i know she will understand....

a few days ago farhan..my ex secondary schoolmate IM me saying,"heartache nmpk"...
and i told him the whole story...waiting for his reply which was like ages...so i go offline cause i was too sleepy...open my messenger the next day and saw an offline msg from him saying,"WTF",which send me laughing...he's like my boyfriend..as in boy but are friends...he knows from the start about this....and he is the one who advice me to be careful...

feel like running away to mount faber park highest point and shout my problems out...so if i go missing,you know where to find me...it is the place he had mention to me before...about me and him going there together to enjoy the view...but now i am there for a different purpose..to run away from all my problems...it has become my favourite spot...

enough for today...

still looking on my phone....for what?i don't know...

easy does it...i am going to sum up on my previous post,i am in love with the person on the phone...not the person in reality...it's like completely different..and i am not over him,though i may say i have...it hurts...and i'm not liking it...everytime i look on the phone,there will be a memory of him...and i can't just bear to delete his msg and phone number away for the meantime...i'm gonna let it stay till the pain in my heart disappears...

i should have follow my instinct last time,but.......
maybe it's a lesson in live that we just have to go through....

There's a ton of thing that i want to pour out...just bear with it kay...hehes:p

9th april:it's when i met him...he is okay lah...but now writing it out made me feel dirty...
I want to apologise to alya if she is reading this cause i don't tell her the whole, like exact story....
firstly:i was like having a headache like hell and i feel like vomitting as i have nt been eating properly due to my sore throat and he like force me to meet him knowing my state that i am in on that day...and i have to LIE to my mum which i am truly feeling bad about...and when i reach there with ais,sab and farid he was like not happy....i know its like our first meeting...but you don't need to be like mrh and unhappy...it's like HELLO!!!sab&ais are my friends..they are just concern about me, knowing what you can do...i don't want to stab him in the back or mengaibkan dier...if you are in my position you will understand....and when i meet him,he was like smoking and talking to me like facefront and the smoke all on my face...so rude lah ser...so rude,i feel like just slapping him and abandon him there... biar padan muker dier...remember my conversation with alya on the way back from esplanade...its not like we dont allowed you to smoke..if you want to smoke,smoke lah and puff all your want until your lung expired...but do it at home lah...so bloody rude...so not a GOOD first impression and this is not the way to ATTRACT girls...and i hear this talk on youtube by ustaz ismail kamus about jin...Jin feeds on smoke....and those who smoke is like a Jin by itself...want to laugh just thinking about it though i am so stressed that time...and by now,my mom know about the whole story minus the house part...she is so understanding....maybe like alya said,my mum may be proud of her daughter for not doing anything sinful and know how to take care of ourselves reaching our adulthood years...

then, after all of them leave us alone and go home...talk a while and he is ask ME to go to his house...EMPTY house for your info...i just go and thought we will like just talk2 on the chairs but he ask me to LAY beside him while we watch tv...and i RELUCTANTLY do so..thinking what a sin i am doing and praying to god so that my virginity will not be taken cause he is like so weird...in my mind i am imagining things like will he give me a drink and pour some weird stuff at the drink....but luckily that didn't happen...i just want my mum to save me that time...and he like touching my arms which is fine...then later he suddenly massage my head without my permission...and asking me to LAY nearer to him and like lift me up so that i can be neare with him...MAN!!!this man is asking for a slapping..luckily i have my excuse of being sick to show my unhappy face...and also he ask for a kiss..muker macam tak tau malu SAK!!!!kan dah out...i was like just joking with him and he take it seriously...i am pretending to be a short-term-memory person...haha!!!:p

enough of it...i hate thinking about it...he's not what i think he is...seem so decent but he's like this...oh my...i might start again...

10 april:
skipping issues we had on that day before our trip...on the way going to botanic garden it rains...skipping the issues that we had again...ride a bus from esplanade and go to mount faber...AGAIN for the third time skipping the issues we had....i was thinking this was like the worst trip ever...but we learn from mistakes...at the end of the day we enjoy ourselve there..me and alya camwhore throughout the day...basically alya was the photgrapher...hehes....i like alya...she is so so CUTE and PRETTY....took turns on taking photo but mostly i was like the item of the shoot cause we also have to shoot photos for sab compeitition...alya is a photographer wannabe...:)sab,with her boyfriend...me with alya and manjer alone...pity manjer but we saw her playing games on sab's bf laptop....later go to esplanade and watch this like mini A-C-A-P-P-E-L-L-A...on esplanade waterfront...the mini-like sort of gig was ok...especially the song bunga sayang compose by dick lee...later went to marina square to walk2 and also alya want go to crocs to buy shoes....but the shop was closed by the time we arrive there...so instead we walk around other places and alya bought this PRETTY bag...lawar sgt...i like....and a headband...the bag is so cheap...its the bag i have been looking all this while....

reach home at 11 plus finding my whole family watching susuk at sensasi...and my small siblings are sick...haiisshh...all my plans for saturday went down the drain...hmmpphh...:(

and i want to mention something...sab's boyfriend face is like the same as nur....urrggh...and it is bloody irritating cause i am constantly reminded about him making it more painful to forget about it...that's why i am trying to run away and avoid from seeing his face...sorry sab...the sound of motorbike,choa chu kang and number 409 makes me sick....

things may seem so painful and confusing...and i realise how much it has set me thinking...later when we look back, this may seem like the most stupidiest thing that we had done and laugh over it...i'm so ashamed of myself..its like he's on my past now...not worth thinking..its time to move on with live and focus on studies and more important things.....though my thoughts of him is not entirely erase, its just not worth it...seems like he have the whole package...but sometimes not all things may end with a happy ending like fergie's song...big gir's don't cry...so my ost....small little things that may not seem important to him, may be important to me...and furthermore i don't want a guy who lives on coffee and cigarettes during lunch....so unhealthy...

pictures will be uploaded from the outing...but not now...cause it is 3.20am in the morning....

love songs are killing me...but i'm hook on class 95...haiiisshh...

i am having side effect of eating sambal telor yesterday night...shisshh!!!but yesterday was like the longest night of all...so the manja lah he...i like...but i am confused...tom is my date due...haha!!!yesterday night was like the sweetest of all.....hmmm....

and tomorrow will be going to get the ticket for cinta fitri hi-tea again...my mum allowed me to go to the hi-tea...love you many2 mama!!!!!so tomorrow will meet up with kak ita and kak shidah....kak ita voice is so cute...i msg her when i saw abt the price ticket on fahmi rais facebook and a few minutes later she called me saying she will call the office straight away to book the ticket so we can get the first table...hahaha!!!!she was at work!!!she was like breathless because of the excitement...me too!!!i were turning around in my chair while typing on my laptop and talking to keela..it was like 3 work at once...and my mum gave me this piss of look....haha...:p but...i am having stomach ache today...hope it will be okay by tomorrow....

botanic garden this friday....picnic...yeah!!!can't wait to camwhore....it's like my ideal place to take pictures...don't know what to wear.....the dress suit with my gladiator with the summer dress...but it will make me look short!!haaiiisshh....

so pissed off with this SPH msg that pop out like every few seconds...disturb only....as much as i want to know the latest news i need my privacy...i was complaining to my mum and my mum said it goes with the package as my mum decided to continue using m1 for me...and i get 1 mth free subscription...shhessshh...my dad want the SPH news msg...i tell you it is SO SO irritating....

so yesterday watch cepat tepat...i think south view pri school won...i like yio chu kang better because the kids are cuter there compare to the one from SV...muker stepping lah ser....and yesterday there's this pitiful guy who do survey on every floor...i layan kan jer...cos kesian kan....and i say takecare too him..cause he needeed that....lucky its not my sis yg bukak...she was wearing telekong...mcm hantu dah...hahha:p and she make this funny look....so cute lah she...

that's all lah...stomach ache!!!!

have a loooooooooooooong chat with him today...chat about relationship possibilites..his hates and likes...a question given and i need to answer it by THIS thursday...all of my fate lies here..he has make it clear...so here i am now thinking...yes or no?i may surprise myself...so all i have to say now is something MAJOR MAY be happening...and i am in a state of confusion...YA ALLAH..TOLONGLAH HAMBAMU INI....hehes:p

i am so devastated right now..more than anything in this world...suddenly things came crushing down and BAMMM!!!it hits me..it's like so painful...its like your heart have been slashed terribly...i am not the kindof girl that go around the house depressed and try to kill myself because of a guy...cause my mum don't thought me that...furthermore who wants to go to hell for killing themselves...i'm the type that keep to myself and when i'm alone i will cry myself to sleep while tuning to class 95...but i am weak when i am around sabrina..she just knows what to do..aishah too...but sabrina is more worst...when i am around her and she knows that i am vulnerable and she will push and push me to tell my problem and i will just easily cry my balls out..she's like the ultimate go to person for me...she's like my mum...she comforts me...i so need her right now when i am in a vulnerable spot...she just seems to know me more than i know myself..love herto death....aishah too..though i don't show my vulnerability to her...she just know what to say to make me laugh...thats why i love her to death...for keela..she knows how to advice people too though i am sometimes pissed of by it though i know she is saying the truth..she's like my inside person who comes as keela...i so need them right now when i feel like crying...so far only sab had seen me cry..the way she hug me...kay enoguh...i am crying like one damn stupid girl but...its too painful lah...just when it starts to happen..i need sab to hug me,i need ais cheerful words,i need keela painful but thruthful truth...just can't live without them...there are like my ultimate life saver...kay enough...i'm tearing up because of one person that is not worth my tears...

my life have changed drastically a few days ago...it all started with a msg and a phone call from HIM...it is all because of SAB..but in a GOOD way...but i have been reminded not to have high hopes and to go step by step slowly and don't straight away jump into it...and wooahh!!!i'm not...NOT!!!urrghh...what do you do when suddenly your heart is beating fast and u have butterflies in your stomach and there's like this ticklish feeling of some sort on the pit of your stomach?that's how i am feeling...it's driving me crazy waking up and my heart starts to beat faster than it's usual rate and my mind can't stop thinking of yesterday conversation and i will be checking my phone in like every 3 seconds and after that i can't stop smiling...i think i am going nuts...

To make things worse,he will be going to China today for work...For 9 excruciating days!!!and i can't stop worrying...but he says everything is fine over there..company car will be picking him up when he reach there..all his accomoditites is well taken care off...but i pity him cause he said it is like a torture...aww....so yesterday conversation on the phone is like the following:
me:so u dah pack brg utk besok?
him:ya...i dah lamer dah pack my brg..
me:oh okay...
me:u will be there until the 15th kan?lamer nyer....
him:why?rindu i ker..hehe
me:uummm...rindu jugak ah..
him:wah rindu ser org tu...hehehe
me:tkdrlah..it is just boring ah tkdr org nak berbual ngan me on the phone mlm2....
him:iyeke??betol tak rindu me?
me:umm...rindu,rindu jugak ah...ahh..u teka ah...(smiling like crazy..my heart mcm nak explode)
him:rindu nih?i'm touched lah..
me:taklah..maner adr rindu...
him:betol tak rindu ni...
me:yerlah2...rindu tu rindu jugak..
him:laughing
me:ya ya i rindu u...
him:chey org tu..rindu me ser..i'm touched
me:smiling...touched?
him:alamak i touched ah you rindu me..hehehehehe
me:betol ker touched ni..(i know, it's a stupid qn to ask...but i was too ????)
and it goes on...
now as i am typing me heart is beating fast and somebody is tickling me on the pit of my stomach....i hate and like this feeling..hehes:)

Talk on the phone till 1 plus am...and my mum was ok with it...but was like giving me this look...not an angry look..but more like a teasing i-will-talk-about-it tom kind of look...hahaha;Pi hope she's ok with it,cause i am constantly talking about him to her...He said he want to call me and he ask me to give a missed call to his phone..did it a few times but he did not respond...you should see how my face was...i was pretending to be indulge in watching tv but my mind was away...worried why he did not call yet and checking the phone like more than a dozen time in a minute...and it turns out he feel asleep for a while...hehes...


He's a november baby..born on the 25th and meanwhile i am on 16th...hehehes:)he got cousin in johor and sungei besi in malacca cause his grandparents are from there...and COINCIDENTALLY mine too...oh my...oh my....hmmm...he likes fishing too like my dad giler pancing...his family members too are giler pancing!!hehes...:pThere's too much for me to tell but lazy to type...overall he is okay...but i will miss hearing his voice every evening and night...hearing his voice made me cair lah ser and it makes me know he is okay...hehes;P how about that?hmmm....don't know how it will turn out...the question still remains..is HE the one?i left it all to god to decide...cause i know my fate lies on HIM and HIM alone...

singing:cause you and me yes we can make it,
just ?????i'm in love with you baybeh...
-take time to realize,that ur warmth is crashing down on in.....hehes:p
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