there's 2 beauty.Inner beauty and Outer beauty.
Which one are you?

I just got my pay on the 7th and in my bank acc there's only $200++ and a few cents..wonder where the money all had disappeared..its just the 11th and more than half of my money is gone...i recall spending 100++ on cosmetics ALONE.Then there's the body shop sale which i cannot resist buying.i end up spending 42.70.it is bettter than before discount which could total up to 101++..and the sale ends today which SUCKS.cause i want to buy more things..i'm the sort of person who like to buy things on impulse and regret it later..but i'm happy with my purchase.i hide it once i reached home.hide it inside my bag and i throw the paper bag inside my cupboard and pretend nothing had happened.until later...cause my mum find the receipt in one of the other plastic bag and i was like DAMNED!luckily she don't nag..she just said don't cry when your money's all gone..but what the HECK!!Though what she say is true..and i plan on buying hand lotion which cause ?? and cranberry room spray which cost just 19.90.its easy to pay..with just one swipe from the nets card and it is paid...i'm SO liking the feeling..swipe all the way...and not to mention the lip balm i'm planning on buying...

forget about that...i'm in the mood of decorating..am feeling like being a interior designer gitu kan...all the creative juice could not have come at a better time.sampai nak tidor pon tak senang!getting inspiration ideas from my body shop purchases..damn!is shopping good.its bring you inspiration.and who came out with the theory that shopping is a wate of money...anyways am addicted to candles,jewels,polka dot ribbon,fuschia pink,purple,violet,bright green,black,white..combination of sweet and elegant and classy...i SO want to be an interior designer right now this instant...

so,skipping to the next topic..i got gossips to share about one of my friend at work.she's 29,a cute and sweet,matured fillipino,married to a chinese and have one cute 3 year old daughter..the thing is she just found out that she is pregnant...and it is supposed to be a good and joyful news to share with everyone right?but its the opposite...she's keeping it a secret.and only a few knows bout it..she is planning on aborting the baby...which to me is totally cruel...it feels like you are killing a human being inside you whi had yet to see the world..till now this instant i donnoe the reason for that..am sure she got some problems,but she should'nt KILL/abort the baby right?hope she rethink about it...

and...........i got some sad news to share..my contract with watson will end next friday and the STUPID manager say she is not taking any part-timers for the time being...am so sad leaving the place cause i have a WONDERFUL,WONDERFUL assistant manager though she could be one hell of a bitch sometimes,great friends....all the kecoh-kecohness,the mak cik kaypohs,the tiredness,the eating and SHOPPING places...haixx....am feeling sad that i'm getting a sting in the eye...but life have to go on...and i am planning to relax for a few weeks before finding a job cause i need to clean up my PIG-STY bedroom and decorate it...not to mention i'm getting my results tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!ARRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!wish me luck...:)

lastly,this com is being such a BITCH!!!it is protesting yet again with the pop-outs....SHHEESHHHH!!!!till then...dada!!!!last words:i prefer having an ugly face than a BLACK heart...life live to the fullest without following people..be your own self...do the right things and making the right decisons will make your future...and always..ALWAYS follow your heart...don't follow your friend if they ask u to do stupid stuff..don't jump when they ask you to jump cause you want to look cool...if you still do,these are my last words to you:jump lah and make yourslef look like an idiot on your death...

BEST WISHES!!love you all....MUAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!

PATIENCE is a success that one can ever achieve.-dirahbumblebee
i currently am so DAMN PISSED OFF!!!!!!!my mum are getting on my nerve every single day or is it just me PMS-ING?ermmm....come to think of it i think it is not just me.any normal person who is in my shoes my place right now will be screaming their heads off!i'm running out of patience...i feel like shouting ENOUGH ALREADY!!!!!!!!!SHE IS DAMN BLOODY NOISY!!!!!i feel like slamming my head against the wall so that i CAN stop listening to her super DAMN BLOODY FUCKING IRRITATING BULLSHIT NAGGING!!!am practically punching the keyboard and i want to smash the keyboard so badly right now!!!!!!!!!tuning or should i say blasting the speaker to christina aguilera what a girl want song.(which irritate me at times.ahax!)at least that will make me forget about the BLOODY FUCKING NAGGING SHE HAVE GAVE ME EVERY SINGLE DAY!and my hair will be dropping out soon because of her.i can't just understand why,now that our thoughts always clash with each other and we will never get along like last time.she is like the ULTIMATE MAK CIK KEPO in the making.intruding my private life.i can't have my private session anymore.it will either be the sound of my siblings fighting or making a lot of noise while playing or it will be my mum nagging at one of us.i heard at the mrt train just now 3 girls age about 16 or 17 years old talking, with one of them saying that her mother is PISSING HER OFF!!!and i SO want to totally join her and said that i experince the same problem.mothers can be so BLOODY IRRITATING at times..one moment i will be laughing with her and the next both of us will be screaming our heads off at each other.HOW'S THAT, TELL ME??feel like running away from this life and never turning back.but the thing is, i am so soft-hearted.(not to brag pardon me,its the truth)and i hate it.i tend to forgive people easily and that is my weakest point.i want to go to a faraway place and shout and cry and tug my hair and stomp my foot and cry.cry,cry,cry and shout,shout,shout my hearts and feelings out till i can't breath or till i ran out of thing to say.i sometimes hate this place called EARTH.and this is so not me.its the DEVIL thats talking...PHEW...I feel better now....and the one that seems to understand me is GOD and my best friend in the WHOLE WIDE WORLD,AISHAH BTE ASMAT.she's the one that i turn to when i need a shoulder to cry on.she's the one that i turn to everytime i have a problem.she's the one that i share my happiness with.she never EVER complains and she will be so patient in comforting me when i am going through hell...thank GOD,for sending me an angel who i called friend..i LOVE YOU LOTS DEAR!!LOTS!no one can ever replace you in this whole wide world.you are the ONE and ONLY..:)My SPECIAL ONE,SITI AISHAH BTE ASMAT.MUACKKZZZ!!!!!this song is for you girl.I TURN TO YOU.BY :THE EVER FANTABOLOUS CHRISTINA AGUILERA!!!!!round of applause please..

♥her mr
♥you are my secret lover

so lately,have been busy with work..so now my world revolves around watsons(which i totally hate it).aniwaes,today is my aunt birthday..my mum called to remind me...so wish her the normal stuff that people would wish for on birthday wishes..Just now,i drop a visit to better Vision to do my eye test for free trial of contact lenses..so will collect it on tuesday the 23rd...i hope i was having morning shift that day or better off...which reminds me that on last tuesday ws my off day day..so there is a high chance that i will be off on that day....and..i got good news...my bff got 8 points for her N level results after her second try which surprise me..i was so delighted and feel like jumping but i have to resist my temptation due to working conditions..hahax!!so today was a busy day...i spend the whole day shifting place,rolling small carpets so that it will fit and scotch tape it...my feet were aching so badly that i was practically limping all the way...so tomorrow,i am having morning shift..which is a GOOD news,though it will be a very sleepy day tomorrow...
signing off now....

♥hey mr
♥you are my secret lover

"When one of your dreams come true, you begin to look at the others more carefully." -Anon.

So, i just fall in love with the above quote..everything is going perfect for me right now.i get to go to cinta fitri hi-tea though its way too long already for me to talk about,i got a job,wonderful family,friends,cousins..the one that i should thank too for all this is GOD.i can't thank him enough for making my wishes come true...

okaes...i am having afternoon shift right now...so will start work at 1.30pm...will only go out at 12.40pm...yeseterday i read this at the mrt"to the 62% of married women who want to be on a deserted island with the flying dutchman.WAKE UP!HIS TAKEN.so funny ser...i was copying this on the mrt on the back of a book...hahax!

so i was blog hopping as usual and i was amazed by how creative and talented nanasontoloyo are...her designs are so DAMN GOOD!i tell you...then i search for my nick, dirahbumblebee at yahoo search engine and i found my nick at the respective webby that i usually leave comment or upload videos at..so cute...wakakakaka!!!!later i found myself surfing on airfares webby...wanting to go to jakarta and australia...will need to save my money to go there....haixxx.....will need some calculations on how much i must save in order to go to both of the places....please..may it come trueeeeeeeeeeee........!!!!!!!

so tomorrow i will be having morning shift and am having an off day at the 3rd...fuiyooh!!!!GEREK TU!!!!aniwaes am counting the days to my pay day...hehes:)can't wait..but can only fork it out on tuesday...UURRGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

so here are my long list:
levis jeans..2@99.90.can u believe it?am so gonna buy it.
cinta fitri vcds
contact lenses
dye hair...the d.i.y hair colour does not shows..and can only be seen from direct sunlight...irritating!!!!
errm....forgot...save money!!!!!!!!!!
♥hey mr
♥you are my secret lover

smile.it will make other people's day as it will make yours.it is free anyway..

okays..i think i am getting better after all the shouting fom the previous post.tomorrow i am having afternoon shift..LUCKILY!though it will bring some sadness cause i will miss my cinta fitri drama and anyway afternoon shift is wayyyyyyyyyy too long for me..considered on taking part-time..maria have even asked me this evening on whether i will be continuing next year..and i say yes...i can't believe i have said yes...but i will ONLY enjoy work provided my new found friend,anna, is around...she is always around to make my day...but for the next two days...she won't...and it will cause me MAJOR depression for a short period..having no one to talk,joke and laugh too...haiizz...

so after sweeping and mopping the floor,i and anna go to our usual,favourite hang out place,which is the cosmetcis section ...and the place that we will go to is the bourjois cosmetics and we will tahe the eyeliner...cause it is superdark.and i like super dark eyeliner..so as i never put any eyeliner to work,i wear the eyeliner...and a mascara..but i can't rememeber the mascara brand name...so we can only do a few minute of catwalk as rowena open the shop early today...and we are like dragging our feet and complaining as to why the shop is be open early...today was a great day to sum it up..and i made a new friend from levi signature store named maricel...such a cute and pretty,fillipino girl...seriously..to me fillipino girls are beautiful and pretty...so to sum it up TODAY was a great day...and i can't believe i have just said that...hope tomorrow will be the same...or i will be like DEAD WALKING PERSON...am uploading cinta fitri season 3 now...so go visit to my multiply if you have time...:)

dadas for now....wish me luck for tomorrow..:)
soory for having a lot of grammar and vocab...i am rushing as i am typing this...

♥her mr
♥you are my secret lover

Life is like a game of cards. The hand that is dealt you represents determinism; the way you play it is free will.
Jawaharal Nehru
now,i am so bloody pissed cause i can't insert pictures and videos into the thumbdrive.second the computer is driving me crazy having error message popping out every few minutes and it will be stuck for a few seconds.third,my legs are aching and i feel like crying and i feel like taking mc tomorrow but my mum does not permit....to sum it all off I AM SO BLOODY AND FUCKING PISSED OFF!I'M TIRED!I'M SICK!AND I THINK I AM GOING PHYSCO IF THE ROUTINE KEEP GOING ON LIKE THIS!PLUS THE SPEAKER IS MAKING A LOUD AND IRRITATING SOUND BECAUSE OF SOME RADIATION!I HAVE TO UPLOAD VIDEOS AND SEND IT TO PEOPLE WHICH I OWE AND I FEEL BAD TOWARDS THEM FOR GIVING EMPTY PROMISES WHICH IS DRIVING ME SAD AND CRAZY!!!MY MUM AND SIS AND BROTHER ARE SHOUTING EVERY SINGLE DAY AT ME!!!DO NOT ADD TO MY PROBLEM OR I WILL BE SCREAMING MY HEADS OFF AND WILL BE SMILING MY HEADS OFF THE NEXT MINUTE EACH TIME I HEAR MY FAVOURITE TUNE.SOMEBODY HELP ME!!!GOD!!!!!!!I EAT ALONE LIKE A LONER AT BANQUET EVERY SINGLE DAY!!AND 1 MORE THING I FORGOT TO ADD I AM SLEEPY!I SLEEP AT MRT TRIPS!I YAWN COUNTLESS TIME WHILE WORKING!I DO NOT GET ENOUGH SLEEP AND I WILL BE GETTING EYEBAGS AND DARK CIRCLES CAUSE I HAVE TO WAKE UP AT 6.15 AM EVERYDAY...GOOSSHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!now you will know why i will not be myself this past few days,WEEKS or even MONTHS!!!!!so do tag and give comments on whether i should continue working or not,or change to part-time or take no paid leave(npl)countless time which will give me a bad reputation.thats it!i'm off.the mad lady is signing off.
♥her mr
♥you are my secret lover

Life is full of mystery.once you find yourself,all happy and laughing and the next you found yourself crying and sobbing.-dirahbumblebee
so tomorrow i am going to dye my hair into brunette using revlon hair colour.am confused with which colour to go after...am relying on the internet to find my shade...wanted to go a salon to dye my hair based on their recommendations but i have not even got my pay....so here are my wishlist:
-cinta fitri vcds
-guess bag
-dye my hair in salon and enough of the d.i.y hair dye.
-suscribe to cleo mag
♥her mr
♥you are my secret lover

The thing is to rely on God. The time will come when you will regard all this misery as a small price to pay for having been brought to that dependence. Meanwhile, the trouble is that relying on God has to begin all over again every day as if nothing has yet been done.
-C.S. Lewis
so i was blog hopping..my mum and siblings were out to my cousin house...at last..peace and quiet....i was supposed to sleep but NAHHH!!!!!i get internal peace from writing....so i got a tag from natasha,a friend of my sister..later i found myself blog hopping...and i decided to read ain's blog...what i read at her blog cause me to cry....i donnoe if it is just me being too sensitive or the song that matches the ambience...but the words touched my heart..and i can feel teardrops falling on my cheek,later on the table...here i will copy and paste the passage that i have read...now did i realise that when we thought that noone care about us,love us,or we are just one useless human being,god will always be with us through it all..through up and down....cause everyone is specially created by him....and he love us all the same....hope this touched you as it has touched me....

Sebuah renungan
A reflection

Ketahuilah olehmu . . .
Jika kau merasa lelah dan tak berdaya dari usaha yang sepertinya sia-sia
Allah SWT tahu betapa keras engkau sudah berusaha

Ketika kau sudah menangis sekian lama dan hatimu masih terasa pedih
Allah SWT sudah menghitung air matamu

Ketika kau fikir bahawa hidupmu sedang menunggu sesuatu dan waktu terasa berjalan begitu sahaja
Allah SWT sedang menunggu bersamamu

Ketika kau berfikir bahawa kau sudah mencuba segalanya dan tidak tahu hendak berbuat apa lagi
Allah SWT sudah punya jawapannya

Ketika segala sesuatu menjadi tak masuk akal dan kau merasa tertekan
Allah SWT dapat menenangkanmu

Ketika kau merasa sendirian dan teman-temanmu terlalu sibuk untuk menelefon
Allah SWT selalu berada disampingmu

Ketika kau mendambakan sebuah cinta sejati yang tak kunjung datang
Allah SWT mempunyai cinta dan kasih yang lebih besar dari segalanya dan Dia menciptakan seseorang yang akan menjadi pasangan hidupmu kelak

Ketika kau merasa bahawa kau mencinta seseorang namun cintamu tak terbalas
Allah SWT tahu apa yang ada di depanmu dan Dia sedang mempersiapkan segala yang terbaik untukmu

Ketika kau merasa telah dikhianati dan dikecewakan
Allah dapat menyembuhkan lukamu dan membuatmu tersenyum

Jika tiba-tiba kau dapat melihat jejak-jejak
Harapan Allah SWT sedang berbisik kepadamu

Ketika segala sesuatu berjalan lancar dan kau merasa ingin mengucap syukur
Allah SWT telah memberkahimu

Ketika sesuatu terjadi dan kau dipenuhi ketakjuban
Allah SWT telah tersenyum kepadamu

Ketika kau memiliki tujuan untuk dipenuhi dan mimpi untuk digenapi
Allah SWT sudah membuka matamu dan memanggilmu dengan namamu

Ingat, dimanapun kau atau kemanapun kau menghadap
Allah SWT tahu


Credits : Dongeng Peri | Sebuah renungan
taken from:http://excluziff.blogspot.com/

ps:this is my 101 post...hahahax!!!

♥her mr
♥you are my secret lover

:)

"Fear less, hope more;
Whine less, breathe more;
Talk less, say more;
Hate less, love more;
And all good things are yours."
-Swedish Proverb as you guess it.i survive through the 4 days of afternoon shift and going back late till about midnight..today is my off day.and i am uber uber uber happy.so my thought suddenly came to remind me of cinta fitri...teuku wisnu and shireen sungkar...i love them so much...and my heart beats fast whenever i think of them..hope they are in a good state of health...and may they always be protected by god...amin..:)
so yesterday there was a lot of work to do.and guess what.of all the things that i must stock,i must stock at the condom section cause no one was stocking it up...i was very the malu(shy)and paiseh....imagine a 17year old girl stcocking up the condoms.luckily no one was watching and there was no customer who was walking at that aisles...everybody was working full shift today except the part-time untie who was super cute with spectacles in her head..everybody was wearing christmas hat ecxcept me,maria(manager) and cik noor...imagine the headscarf and the christmas hat..it does not match right?everybody was preparing for christmas...stocking up things...
so eat lunch..ALONE.everybody have different lunch time..so eat at banquet after the past few days eating at long john and ordering the same meals.though now i am addicted to the fries...eat laksa and my new love iced milk tea..
mediacorp was shooting at imm yesterday.i aws at both places when it took place.firstly at osim when i was about to have lunch and giant supermarket.my manager and supervisor were both very 'kaypoh'.my supervisor who was working came out of the store and and i can recognise her with the red christmas hat among the different coloured hair..i was on the verge of laughing already..so funny.my manager was the first to go out..first she was beside me talking with me.the next,when i turn my back she disappear..hahax:)i also join lah..'kaypoh' too what..hahax:)
so,as everybody was having full shift when we are going home,anne was asking me if we can go back together,but i feel so bad cause everytime cik noor and i go back late,she will send me home...
have a little chat with my sis before she go to work...we now realise that our life now revolves around work.and we must do a lot of commitment.like in a relationship..am missing those time i used to spend with my families and friends..hope can make time for you all when i am free aites...love ya...
am excited today cause will be able to watch cinta fitri 3...hehes:)my no.1 love....always...this is my one and only love..hahax:)my boyfie you might call it....
off now..a lot of video 'debts' must be settled.inserting pictures and videos on cds cause the com is already full and is already protesting to me by popping a small memory space...hahax!!!
much love,
dirah bumblebee..
-will post on my next off day
-gd luck to shakeela..hope you get a job soon
-congrats to natasha dear for getting a job at coffee bean,paragon, orchard.will find time to drop there..free drinks please...hahax:)
-thanx for the b'dae wishes..love you all..:)
♥her mr
♥you are my secret lover

What sunshine is to flowers, smiles are to humanity. These are but trifles, to be sure; but, scattered along life's pathway, the good they do is inconceivable-Joseph Addison
so..will not be able to blog for a certain days due to my shift...from monday to thursday. i will be working afternoon shift from 1.30-10pm.so tired but this is the sacrifice i must made to earn some money.now i learn that working need a lot of patience,responsibility,work fast and so much more.
so yesterday WAS my birthday..i WORK on my BIRTHDAY and i feel like crying...when maria told me the previous day that on sunday i have to work from 1.30-10pm my heart stop beating and tears are already welling up in my eyes...my heart shattered into PIECES..PIECES...that was how devastated i am.i want to take sick leave but..NAHH!!!!!just start working then want to ask for my leave...bad impression...so yesterday though deep inside i was crying,i put up a brave front and just SMILE...YA SMILE like one heck of a happy person....

i do mostly wrapping from the moment i start working until 8 plus with 3.30pm break in between..the one and only time for me to be free...so i do the packing with an untie and a 15 plus years old promoter who help a little bit....the untie was SUPER nice and friendly..she mostly do the wrapping cause once she was rapper..i mean a WRAPPER...so expert in wrapping and so fast...i do one she already do two...then while she do the wrapping been ask by cik su,my supervisor, to do the price tag label on the wrapped gift...so the untie do the packing i do the price label....until 8 plus when cik su ask both of us to stop and ask me to supervise the store....before that doris asked me to clear the rubbish....

so go home near 11 plus...cik su was such a dear...she ask me to back with her cause we live in the same area..i live in block 28,she in block 7...so her husband pick her up with me along and send me home....little did i expect that when i reached my house and knock on the door the door was being SLAMMED on my face...hehes:)actually my mum and 3 siblings did a mini suprise party with a cute cake...awwwwwwwwwwwwww....sweet right..all my tiredness(if there is such a word)disappear instantly...and my mum was such such such such a fear to have videotaped cinta fitri season 3 for me so i can watch it when i reached home..love them so much!!!!!!!

this is the only time that i can spare and use the comp...you will see more of me on friday...cause it is my OFF DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yipee.....
psss:my manager is maria and not doris
doris is my supervisor...

♥her mr
♥you are my secret lover

hehes:)

You will never be happy if you continue to search for what happiness consists of. You will never live if you are looking for the meaning of life.

Ok!!!!i'm back after a few weeks of disappearing...been busy with exams and searching for jobs...have just finished my paper last tuesday on 12/11/2008.i just collected my o level certificate.have not collected it since february...a few of my clasmates still have not collect it.i thought i was the last one.i also collected by graduation book..luckily the malay untie in my school was not there.or else i will be nag....i got d7 for cca and i was shocked by my testimonials...my teacher are so sweet..i miss my secondary school days....

so on tuesday i go to watson headquarters and go for job interview..meet a few sweet girls there who was there for the interview too...after my interview it was my sis turn so i talk to them and they were fun to talk too....so today i meet them again...i report at the watson hq at 8.45am with some friends..talk talk talk..sign here sign there...i was so nervous!!!!we board the same train and go out at different stations...but before that we exchange numbers..one is at suntec,one is at tiong baharu or tanjong pagar...and the other one at clementi..mine at IMM watsons..the staff there were super friendly...and i was the youngest...i was like the baby there...my manager name was doris...got a lot of thing to do..but not that tired....can managelah..tom i will start work at 8.30am and end at 4.30pm.will update more on sunday...off now..want to watch cinta fitri season 3 at sctv..my number ONE LOVE AND MY TOP PRIORITY!!!!!!!!!!

MUACKZZ.....
go to this website if you are a crazy fan of cinta fitri...like me..hehehes:):)
www.fitrifarrel.multiply.com
www.nani91.multiply.com
or my one:www.dirahbumblebee.multiply.com

♥her mr
♥you are my secret lover